and days of darkness and laziness are still existent

[misoshiru]

I hate them days when all I can do is sulk and think of my world as the worst one there is.
I hate them days when all I can feel are frustrations and negativity.
I hate them days when I am stuck in my bed, playing some addicting game on my iPhone instead of being productive and excited.

Pfffft. Bonk. Plonk.

I just hate it when I second guess myself.
When trusting myself is hard and impossible.
I just completely hate it when there is simply just nothing.

I squeeze my heart out.
And I look for inspirations everywhere.
And I know them inspirations are in front of me,
yet,
I end up still with a blank page.

creative block is despicable.
but it does happen to people.
and fuck. damn. shit.
it's happening to me now.