a million little misjudgements
when do you open your eyes and see that everything that you have done to better your life is suddenly all fake?
all misjudgements, all mistakes?
where do we find comfort when darkness has reigned?
where do you start when you've already crossed the finished line?
a second becomes a gazillion light years away.
a tear becomes a body of water bigger than the ocean.
a friend becomes a stranger
a day of fun becomes a day of struggle and war and defeat
and victory becomes a lame word
how do you get up and get going when all your bones are stripped from your body?
how do you breathe deeply when depth itself doesn't know its worth?
this... life, as they call it, just became harder.
just became much more difficult
much more insanely inappropriate
much easier to waste or throw
just because of this thing called CHOICE.
i surrender this time
really...
you can make yourself believe that one can be a tool of change
a prolific being that can stir a commotion
but then again
one cannot be helped, if one doesn't want to be helped.
so i want to stop here
to stop.
think, dwell, breathe, meditate, decide,
cry, prepare for nothingness, smile,
move on, live, let live, give space,
enjoy space,
balance
which is the hardest
let go
because you can only do so much
save yourself
live a life that you deserve.
there's madness in the world. madness in my heart.
chaos outside the unknown. mayhem inside my home.
but i can be still
i will have to be still
i will be still
and i will look at my life one day...
and hope i'd be able to tell my story
one day.. maybe
but now, i need to do whatever it takes...
whatever it takes
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