(no subject)
I don't know how to start this. I really don't.
Basically, after the Olymfics are done, I'm deleting this LiveJournal. I'm stopping writing (well, as best as I can- I actually have made like another account already OOPS but just so I can sort of read fic and also write stuff without being under pressure). For the next 4 years, basically, I have to knuckle down and study my ass off if I ever want to get out of this place. Because, honestly, if I don't study overseas away from here, I might go mad.
I don't have that many readers (because I don't write that much or that well, but that's beside the point) but I feel like I should explain myself anyway. This is really hard to put into words, but I'll try.
For those of you (many of you are unaware, probably) I've been suffering from depression for about 7 months now. I know, written in words, that seems short, but it seems so long to me. It's just been so long. If you had discounted my evening laughing at David Tennant the last time I'd felt happy was circa June, July.
The thing is, criticism and stress are two things I cannot handle. It's pathetic, I know, but I take the former very personally and I've just been unable to take the latter. I start getting sick and it's kind of ridiculous. I guess you could say that my depression is just "getting sick" because I was under so much pressure this year. Okay now I'm just kind of lost where I am umm
Okay things to note:
1)I truly do apologise, that I won't be writing (at least not what you would know, anyway.)
2)I wish I could continue, but I don't think I can.
3)This is because practical reasons and personal reasons and
4)I hope you can respect that.
Otherwise, I hope you all have been doing good, how are you lot?