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Today was better. There were plenty of things that could have ruined shit, but I tried to cast it aside and focus on positives.
I got the job! I sort of casually applied for it online, and I thought the interview went alright but I really didn't think I would get it! I'm very happy, I don't start until the end of january but that gives me time to visit my boyfriend in Toronto, get back and relax for a few weeks before starting. It will be nice to get into work again, especially if I get accepted into college which brings me to my next point...
I applied to a college in Toronto for their social services worker program. I applied to the college in Winnipeg that offers a counselling program and they were very unorganized and I didn't meet the requirements (they want volunteer hours.) So after chatting with my boyfriend and his mom, she suggested a college there. So far they have been really helpful and I got two letters today acknowledging my application, wishing me luck, and a bunch of contact information. I'll find out beginning of February if I've been accepted. Ugh, "accepted" and "rejected" are so harsh aren't they? I'm keeping my hopes up but I need a solid back up plan if I don't get in. Pouting in my room and gaining ANOTHER 10 pounds isn't exactly a plan...
Speaking of which; I've gained a few pounds back and I think I would feel better if I got closer to my usual weight. Friday night was our big family christmas evening, and then I rushed over to the tavern for Liezl's birthday. I saw pictures of myself the next day and cried like a silly girl. My clothes were fine, but I saw my makeup that I tried really hard on, I pinned my bangs up, and did everything I thought i was supposed to do and i looked and just felt awful and fat. And instead of pulling my shit together and getting over it, I cried to Casey about it and doubted why he loves me. It was really immature but I guess it happens to the best of us.
I need a creative outlit, blogging has helped a bit, but I need to feel useful.
<3 Happy holidays also =)
I got the job! I sort of casually applied for it online, and I thought the interview went alright but I really didn't think I would get it! I'm very happy, I don't start until the end of january but that gives me time to visit my boyfriend in Toronto, get back and relax for a few weeks before starting. It will be nice to get into work again, especially if I get accepted into college which brings me to my next point...
I applied to a college in Toronto for their social services worker program. I applied to the college in Winnipeg that offers a counselling program and they were very unorganized and I didn't meet the requirements (they want volunteer hours.) So after chatting with my boyfriend and his mom, she suggested a college there. So far they have been really helpful and I got two letters today acknowledging my application, wishing me luck, and a bunch of contact information. I'll find out beginning of February if I've been accepted. Ugh, "accepted" and "rejected" are so harsh aren't they? I'm keeping my hopes up but I need a solid back up plan if I don't get in. Pouting in my room and gaining ANOTHER 10 pounds isn't exactly a plan...
Speaking of which; I've gained a few pounds back and I think I would feel better if I got closer to my usual weight. Friday night was our big family christmas evening, and then I rushed over to the tavern for Liezl's birthday. I saw pictures of myself the next day and cried like a silly girl. My clothes were fine, but I saw my makeup that I tried really hard on, I pinned my bangs up, and did everything I thought i was supposed to do and i looked and just felt awful and fat. And instead of pulling my shit together and getting over it, I cried to Casey about it and doubted why he loves me. It was really immature but I guess it happens to the best of us.
I need a creative outlit, blogging has helped a bit, but I need to feel useful.
<3 Happy holidays also =)