You've come a long way baby...
I've been studying diasporic societies in my Global Media class and it's led me to think of my own life. I don't really belong to any of these societies but I understand the sense of not really belonging anywhere.
In HK, I couldn't relate to the local Chinese people (because it wasn't cool to be) and hanging out with the rest of the expat kids made me think that I was white. Back in KL, I became the 'banana' girl...yellow on the outside, white on the inside. My friends helped me to adapt and become more Malaysian but I continouosly read books about Asian American women with identity issues -- because I could relate.
When I came over here, it was hard always trying to explain my strange accent...MB knows what I'm talking about...ghetto rojak accent...and to save myself the trouble, I'd reply, "yeah I spent a lot of time in the states"...only so no one would ask anymore. It's funny how I was never interested in the culture till I came over here and realised that most of the ABCs grew up more Asian than I did. I've also become very defensive towards derogatory remarks made by people towards Asian people when in the past, my friends in HK and I would snub anyone who was of a local chinese origin.
I'd like to think that my friends and I are part of a new global culture but it'd be nice to be able to relate to something. I am such a cliche...(more than) twice displaced and too many issues.
11 more days and I'd have completed all my essays. There's a count down going here...
In HK, I couldn't relate to the local Chinese people (because it wasn't cool to be) and hanging out with the rest of the expat kids made me think that I was white. Back in KL, I became the 'banana' girl...yellow on the outside, white on the inside. My friends helped me to adapt and become more Malaysian but I continouosly read books about Asian American women with identity issues -- because I could relate.
When I came over here, it was hard always trying to explain my strange accent...MB knows what I'm talking about...ghetto rojak accent...and to save myself the trouble, I'd reply, "yeah I spent a lot of time in the states"...only so no one would ask anymore. It's funny how I was never interested in the culture till I came over here and realised that most of the ABCs grew up more Asian than I did. I've also become very defensive towards derogatory remarks made by people towards Asian people when in the past, my friends in HK and I would snub anyone who was of a local chinese origin.
I'd like to think that my friends and I are part of a new global culture but it'd be nice to be able to relate to something. I am such a cliche...(more than) twice displaced and too many issues.
11 more days and I'd have completed all my essays. There's a count down going here...