It's been good...
I can't decide which I hate more...my sister's comp or LJ for erasing everything I write every time the back button is accidentally pressed. *ARGH*
I'm sitting her watching 'Thirteen' for the second time as I type this. The first time I watched this movie, I cried angry, pain-filled tears because it brought back memories I wanted to forget. This time however, it's ok...because I know now that it's all over and I'm alright now.
Sometimes dad really surprises me. He called tonight and said that he'd already booked a place for my graduation celebration and when I asked where he said, "one in melbourne and one in KL"...I was really touched...A, V and I have almost always had to tell our parents what we wanted for Christmas, birthdays etc. but I didn't ask for a graduation present or a party...AND he's already asking what I want to do for my birthday this year and it's only April!! He did however mention Paris and initially I thought he meant he was taking me to Paris after my birthday but it's just hit me...AT is moving to Paris around that time...I think my dad still expects me to go and be with him. Why don't they understand? I've moved on and they should too!
I know AT has been really upset of late. I want to call and tell him that it'll akk be ok but what good is that going to do? It's only going to hurt him more and I'll only give him a false sense of hope. He has to understand that I never intended to hurt him and that I'm sorry about the pain I've caused but I'm happy now and this time round, I'm not willing to give up my happiness for his.
Ming bought me a ticket to the Michael Buble concert tomorrow night...I am so psyched!! He told me when I got back yesterday and I was over the moon...A and T cleaned my bathroom, made my bed, made me dinner and even went to the extent of putting fresh towels on my bed and folding the toilet paper hotel style...hahaha... it's such a nice feeling knowing that people you care about are thinking of you too. *sigh*
I start my internship at the Herald Sun tomorrow...I'm a little nervous but trying to not to think about it too much because I'll only be super nervous about it and there's no point in that.
I'm sitting her watching 'Thirteen' for the second time as I type this. The first time I watched this movie, I cried angry, pain-filled tears because it brought back memories I wanted to forget. This time however, it's ok...because I know now that it's all over and I'm alright now.
Sometimes dad really surprises me. He called tonight and said that he'd already booked a place for my graduation celebration and when I asked where he said, "one in melbourne and one in KL"...I was really touched...A, V and I have almost always had to tell our parents what we wanted for Christmas, birthdays etc. but I didn't ask for a graduation present or a party...AND he's already asking what I want to do for my birthday this year and it's only April!! He did however mention Paris and initially I thought he meant he was taking me to Paris after my birthday but it's just hit me...AT is moving to Paris around that time...I think my dad still expects me to go and be with him. Why don't they understand? I've moved on and they should too!
I know AT has been really upset of late. I want to call and tell him that it'll akk be ok but what good is that going to do? It's only going to hurt him more and I'll only give him a false sense of hope. He has to understand that I never intended to hurt him and that I'm sorry about the pain I've caused but I'm happy now and this time round, I'm not willing to give up my happiness for his.
Ming bought me a ticket to the Michael Buble concert tomorrow night...I am so psyched!! He told me when I got back yesterday and I was over the moon...A and T cleaned my bathroom, made my bed, made me dinner and even went to the extent of putting fresh towels on my bed and folding the toilet paper hotel style...hahaha... it's such a nice feeling knowing that people you care about are thinking of you too. *sigh*
I start my internship at the Herald Sun tomorrow...I'm a little nervous but trying to not to think about it too much because I'll only be super nervous about it and there's no point in that.