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[mishaoo]

theres ony 4 more weeks left of school and i am trying to catch up with everyone. but it seems to be failing. and i cant seem to be doing a good job in whatever i am doing. maybe it isnt my thing. last week was the most stressful week of them all and it seems to never end. last monday was the day of my interview for graphic design, my plan B. but right now it seems to be failing. im losing my motovation. its hard. when u fallen so many times, all that trying and trying was a waste of time. what if i do get all my assignments in.. what if i spend the last 4 weeks doing nothing but continuious assignments. will i pass? if i dont then it would be a waste of time wouldnt it? i really dont know what i am going to do if i dont get any accepance to anywhere. i really dont kno what to tell my parents. i really dont kno what im going to do for a year. i really dont kno whats going to happen. im really really really afraid of the disapointment in myself and everyone around me. what if my best isnt good enough? what if im really not ment to be successful.

from that day i understand that your actions were ment to keep me away.
and for that. i will accept. therefore it will be the last of me.
i will stay away.