Day one.
Day one.
I am not going to pretend. I am not going to act like something is one way if it isnt. It does no good to hope that something will turn out this way, cause well it is comforting to have that stability. The best thing to do in a situation where you have been smacked in the face, dragged through the mud, and spat at, it well take a shower for one and for two get on with your life. Yes, revenge is sweet, but remember what goes around comes around. One day Cory will find him self head over heels in love (which if I may break in, I believe that he was that way with me.) He will lose it and >wack< smacked in the face with Karma and reality.
Today was alright. I went to work. Then today was PubDDB which means they take one of the conference rooms on the 40th floor and turn it into a pub. Food, wine, beer, games. I decided that Angelique (co-worker) and I should devulge in some free drinking on the works time. We played bean bags..or as some call it corn holing. Anyway we met some freelancers, in their early twenties. Both attractive, but one caught my eye. Noah. Both from Michigan. What the fuck? Can i please get away from the Michiganders? Anyway, Noah's last day at DDB is my last day. So if we keep in touch within the office, we may go out for drinks in celebration of leaving corporate America. He is going back to Michigan State for grad school.
Crushes are great and are a great diversion from the pain that I feel for the fact that Cory hasnt called me. I guess I didnt quite expect him to..why would he?I guess over all he has disappointed me. I mean the first time he left I was hurt. Now I am just like egh...fucken Cory! You moron! He left his journals which is a sign he will be coming back. But can you call? I mean shit. You say that you love someone doesnt that mean that you give that person that you say that you love the decency to give a call and say hey I am still alive...thanks for loving me by the way..thanks for everything that you have done for me. I have helped him create a promising future and life. Everything catered to him. I guess some people arent grateful. Plus he says he will be back before my birthday...so what you just drop off the face of the planet for a few weeks and then think you can appear on the door step and think nothing has changed?
I doubt anything will come from this crush that I have..but it is good to be able to find someone attractive...that is an ADULT. Who doesnt run away.
Ah well...we will see in due time what is to come. I love him I do. I wish to see him again. But I am not a stop watch. I cant freeze time in my life to accomodate his need to leave.
I am not going to pretend. I am not going to act like something is one way if it isnt. It does no good to hope that something will turn out this way, cause well it is comforting to have that stability. The best thing to do in a situation where you have been smacked in the face, dragged through the mud, and spat at, it well take a shower for one and for two get on with your life. Yes, revenge is sweet, but remember what goes around comes around. One day Cory will find him self head over heels in love (which if I may break in, I believe that he was that way with me.) He will lose it and >wack< smacked in the face with Karma and reality.
Today was alright. I went to work. Then today was PubDDB which means they take one of the conference rooms on the 40th floor and turn it into a pub. Food, wine, beer, games. I decided that Angelique (co-worker) and I should devulge in some free drinking on the works time. We played bean bags..or as some call it corn holing. Anyway we met some freelancers, in their early twenties. Both attractive, but one caught my eye. Noah. Both from Michigan. What the fuck? Can i please get away from the Michiganders? Anyway, Noah's last day at DDB is my last day. So if we keep in touch within the office, we may go out for drinks in celebration of leaving corporate America. He is going back to Michigan State for grad school.
Crushes are great and are a great diversion from the pain that I feel for the fact that Cory hasnt called me. I guess I didnt quite expect him to..why would he?I guess over all he has disappointed me. I mean the first time he left I was hurt. Now I am just like egh...fucken Cory! You moron! He left his journals which is a sign he will be coming back. But can you call? I mean shit. You say that you love someone doesnt that mean that you give that person that you say that you love the decency to give a call and say hey I am still alive...thanks for loving me by the way..thanks for everything that you have done for me. I have helped him create a promising future and life. Everything catered to him. I guess some people arent grateful. Plus he says he will be back before my birthday...so what you just drop off the face of the planet for a few weeks and then think you can appear on the door step and think nothing has changed?
I doubt anything will come from this crush that I have..but it is good to be able to find someone attractive...that is an ADULT. Who doesnt run away.
Ah well...we will see in due time what is to come. I love him I do. I wish to see him again. But I am not a stop watch. I cant freeze time in my life to accomodate his need to leave.