I just can not take this "scene" anymore.
I am happy that I am moving to the south side again. I am overwhelmed with anticipation, actually I just pissed myself with joy! Clean up on aisle two.
The past ~7 months my life has been shit. Not because of Cory (you presumptuous asshole). Yeah, Cory and I have had ups and downs, and yeah I am fucken weirdo for not knowing if I really want a relationship. But you know what, in the past ~7 months, out of the people that I have known for "years" Cory has shown me love, friendship, acceptance, and other things...that friends are suppose to offer.
I am tired of the elitist attitudes that people have. People that cant see past their own needs or desires. People that say that they are open minded, but play the same role every mutha fucken day and are incapable of having a conversation with someone that thinks out side of the confines that one is use to, and thus attacks. Fuck you! Fucken Hypocrite cocksuckers! You are not part of the solution rather a part of the problem.
i am sick of people saying that I dont call them to hang out or whine that they have no friends. Well shit it is a two way fucken street. You can call me too. The only people that call me are Jessica and Kelly and Kati. So everyone else can stop their fucken whining. See and it does not even bother me anymore. I mean it did when it first started happening...but you know what now..i am just like yeah, that again...people. fuck em.
I am sick of all the fucken stoners.
And i want to kill the fucken people that slander other people's names because they are so much of a fucken stoner that they can't fucken count or remember shit. And who fucken mooches off of other people. Get a fucken life, get a fucken job, get the fuck off my couch! (last part is irrelevant). I don't want to hear your wah wah bullshit, When Cory and I were financially supporting you. Internet, cable, food. Well not any more, which I find rather funny. cause that person knew that our food stamps ran out...and that person ate all of our fucken food, but couldn't return the favor. Rather slander my boyfriends name.
Cory is not a fucken thief. I don't give a fuck what anyone has to say. yeah Cory stole socks, way to go asshole. First of all Cory barely changes his socks, second of all we have a shit load our selves, third of all the only pair that was left behind that he supposedly stole was well that one pair that you knew he was wearing. Second of all, the cigarettes, come on now...everyone knows Cory isn't the brightest, the smartest the quickest. If he would have stolen cigarettes I would have known about it. I would have seen new ports dyed out in the ashtrays...or etc. Plus if he was a thief, I am sure I would notice things missing, esp. money. Never once has anything of substance gone missing. He would take a couple of cigs before taking an entire pack. Get over it, fucken little dick pricks.
I hate people asking me for fucken favors, when they can give two shits if I will ever see them again anyway.
The gap is widening.
I had fun at the ICP show. I had fun debating with Paul in Jackson. I had fun in Jackson period. I cant handle the dark country roads. or the weird animal noises, or the white trash. but you know what....his friends are nice. They aren't the brightest..but you know what..I guess I would rather have real authentic people than people who are smart and fake it.
I am just tired of it all.
I am going back to the south side to leave this pathetic scene. Yeah we might be white trash, yeah we might not of had an education fund put together from the time of our birth, yeah we not have had new clothing every season, we might have biked to the park two blocks away barefoot and in clothes that didn't match, always the possibility of tie dye being present. But you know what, I wouldn't give that up for the world. Not even to know that spain is not in southern America.
I guess I never really belonged with all you political folk. You folk that are smart wit all dem books.
I never really did belong. I am white trash and I am just like the rest of the fucken world. I am one of the people you love to hate. Well You can go on and continue hating my kind.
us ignorant folk, that you don't have the patience or tolerance to deal with.
At least my friends down on the south side. the ones that I have known since grade school, never turned their backs on me because of whatever dude I was dating.
I never did belong. I guess I could never conform to your lifestyle. Don't know if I even tried.
I never stopped eating at Mickey d's or shopping at target. Never stopped driving my car, or eating meat. oh and my five year plan entails getting a house (equipped with that white picket fence) and getting that big white church wedding, oh and having that 2.5 kid thing going on and a 2.5 car garage.
But I need to get back to my schnazzy corporate job. I have been typing for an hour, minus a poop.
Side not: i am pms-ing right now so most of this is irrational...
The past ~7 months my life has been shit. Not because of Cory (you presumptuous asshole). Yeah, Cory and I have had ups and downs, and yeah I am fucken weirdo for not knowing if I really want a relationship. But you know what, in the past ~7 months, out of the people that I have known for "years" Cory has shown me love, friendship, acceptance, and other things...that friends are suppose to offer.
I am tired of the elitist attitudes that people have. People that cant see past their own needs or desires. People that say that they are open minded, but play the same role every mutha fucken day and are incapable of having a conversation with someone that thinks out side of the confines that one is use to, and thus attacks. Fuck you! Fucken Hypocrite cocksuckers! You are not part of the solution rather a part of the problem.
i am sick of people saying that I dont call them to hang out or whine that they have no friends. Well shit it is a two way fucken street. You can call me too. The only people that call me are Jessica and Kelly and Kati. So everyone else can stop their fucken whining. See and it does not even bother me anymore. I mean it did when it first started happening...but you know what now..i am just like yeah, that again...people. fuck em.
I am sick of all the fucken stoners.
And i want to kill the fucken people that slander other people's names because they are so much of a fucken stoner that they can't fucken count or remember shit. And who fucken mooches off of other people. Get a fucken life, get a fucken job, get the fuck off my couch! (last part is irrelevant). I don't want to hear your wah wah bullshit, When Cory and I were financially supporting you. Internet, cable, food. Well not any more, which I find rather funny. cause that person knew that our food stamps ran out...and that person ate all of our fucken food, but couldn't return the favor. Rather slander my boyfriends name.
Cory is not a fucken thief. I don't give a fuck what anyone has to say. yeah Cory stole socks, way to go asshole. First of all Cory barely changes his socks, second of all we have a shit load our selves, third of all the only pair that was left behind that he supposedly stole was well that one pair that you knew he was wearing. Second of all, the cigarettes, come on now...everyone knows Cory isn't the brightest, the smartest the quickest. If he would have stolen cigarettes I would have known about it. I would have seen new ports dyed out in the ashtrays...or etc. Plus if he was a thief, I am sure I would notice things missing, esp. money. Never once has anything of substance gone missing. He would take a couple of cigs before taking an entire pack. Get over it, fucken little dick pricks.
I hate people asking me for fucken favors, when they can give two shits if I will ever see them again anyway.
The gap is widening.
I had fun at the ICP show. I had fun debating with Paul in Jackson. I had fun in Jackson period. I cant handle the dark country roads. or the weird animal noises, or the white trash. but you know what....his friends are nice. They aren't the brightest..but you know what..I guess I would rather have real authentic people than people who are smart and fake it.
I am just tired of it all.
I am going back to the south side to leave this pathetic scene. Yeah we might be white trash, yeah we might not of had an education fund put together from the time of our birth, yeah we not have had new clothing every season, we might have biked to the park two blocks away barefoot and in clothes that didn't match, always the possibility of tie dye being present. But you know what, I wouldn't give that up for the world. Not even to know that spain is not in southern America.
I guess I never really belonged with all you political folk. You folk that are smart wit all dem books.
I never really did belong. I am white trash and I am just like the rest of the fucken world. I am one of the people you love to hate. Well You can go on and continue hating my kind.
us ignorant folk, that you don't have the patience or tolerance to deal with.
At least my friends down on the south side. the ones that I have known since grade school, never turned their backs on me because of whatever dude I was dating.
I never did belong. I guess I could never conform to your lifestyle. Don't know if I even tried.
I never stopped eating at Mickey d's or shopping at target. Never stopped driving my car, or eating meat. oh and my five year plan entails getting a house (equipped with that white picket fence) and getting that big white church wedding, oh and having that 2.5 kid thing going on and a 2.5 car garage.
But I need to get back to my schnazzy corporate job. I have been typing for an hour, minus a poop.
Side not: i am pms-ing right now so most of this is irrational...