hmmm

[misha0]

well had a bit of a blah couple of days... kinda just been thinking why I had to come home from england I have friends that have gone over there that i would of thought would of been home by now... I have nothing really keeping me here now I've just got into finance for a car which I have to pay off when I could of just gone back to england been working been with friends and having fun on the weekends and seeing different places... but here I am at home have nothing really to show since i have come home from england i wanted to study, get healthy, move out (which happened for a while) and find someone the only thing that's really happened since coming back was getting a job which is not the best considering what i get paid for considering what i can get paid. so at the moment I am having a bit of a dilemma i kinda think of paying off a few things and heading back overseas. ive been back for a year now and I am disappointed in myself because i haven't changed anything that i wanted to change i know i have no one to blame but myself.............

don't get me wrong it was great coming home and seeing my family and friends again its been great.....

maybe i just need to aim for something and once i achieve that then move on to the next one and then consider if i want to go back or not..... maybe i just need a holiday :)

anyway better go enough of my winging for one night.......