[PG - JaeHo] You Don't Know
Title You Don't Know
Author mish18
Chapter 1/?
Rating PG; RPS
Genre Romance, Angst?
Fandom - Pairing DBSG - JaeHo
Summary One feels for the other, but couldn't bring himself to say anything. He's jealous, he's angry, and they couldn't understand him because they don't know... He doesn't know.
A/N ^^;; Annyeong. xD This is my first time writing anything JaeHo--or anything yaoi for that matter. ^^; Please excuse the grammatical errors and typos ^^' I wrote this over a year ago, but only posted it now.
"God, Yunho! What is your problem?"
"You're asking me? How can you be so dense, huh, Jaejoong?"
"What did I do this time?!!!" Jaejoong asked, roughly brushing his hair with his hand, making it fall messily over his face.
Yunho sighed exasperatedly and shook his head. "Never mind. You'll never understand."
"See? How would I ever understand if you don't tell me anything at all?" Jaejoong said, raising his voice. "All you ever do is get mad at me, walk out on me, without telling me what the problem is."
Yunho didn't reply, and turned away from him instead.
Jaejoong walked closer to Yunho, and laid a hand on his arm. "Come on, tell me what this is all about." Jaejoong have always been the comforting one in the group, and even if this gesture didn't mean much to him, it meant so much, and in a very different way to Yunho.
Again, Yunho remained silent, his back facing Jaejoong still.
Sensing that he won't be able to get anything out of his bandmate, Jaejoong let go of his arm. "Alright. If this keeps up, we'll all end up cleaning bathrooms. I'll leave you now. But I hope you realize that if we don't get to work out whatever your problem is soon, DBSG will really get in trouble." With that, Jaejoong walked out of the room and slammed the door behind him.
Yunho was left alone.
Alone to think.
His problem? His problem is Jaejoong. Jaejoong and himself. Jaejoong and his feelings for him.
You see, Jaejoong and Yunho have been friends for quite a long time already. And they're bestfriends, and are almost like brothers. Okay, and so maybe to Jaejoong, Yunho is his bestfriend among the group, and he treats him like a brother he never had.
But it's not like that for Yunho at all.
To him, Jaejoong is more than a bestfriend, and certainly not a brother. He has fallen for him. HARD. And Jaejoong doesn't have a single idea about it.
'Damnit, Yunho. Get your act together.' He told himself. He knew, that if he continues to act all weird and jealous around Jaejoong and the rest, it would create conflict.
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"Hyung, how did it go with Yunho hyung?" Junsu asked as he switched the channel. Jaejoong just came in to the living room where Changmin and Junsu were watching television.
"Bad. He snapped at me and told me I was dense and said that I wouldn't understand what his problem was anyway." Jaejoong shrugged, sitting on his favorite couch, which was across the sofa where Junsu and Changmin were seated together.
"What did you do to make him walk out on us anyway?" Changmin said as he took a handful of popcorn, eyes still on the television.
"I don't know. He seems to be irritated with me all the time."
"Maybe you should avoid him for a while." Changmin suggested.
"Hm, I guess I should." He replied, standing up. "Anyway, I'll just go down to the cafe to get a drink. Anything you want me to get for you?" Jaejoong asked the two.
"Two bags of chips for me." said Changmin.
Jaejoong looked at Junsu. "And you?"
"I'll just have a steamed bun."
"Alright. I'll be back in a while." Jaejoong said as he went out.
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An hour later...
"Eh, Junsu, where's Jaejoong?" Yunho asked as he walked in to the living room where Junsu and Changmin were still watching tv.
"Went down to get food." Changmin said, eyes glued to the tv.
"And Yoochun?"
"We haven't seen him since we came back from the photoshoot." Junsu answered.
"Oh, alright." said Yunho shortly, and went back to his room again.
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"Did you see his face?" Someone said, laughing.
"Yeah! He looked like he saw a ghost!" Another laughed.
Yoochun and Jaejoong opened the door to the Dong Bang dormitory, both close to tears from laughing. At this time, Junsu, Changmin and Yunho were in the living room.
"Hey you guys, I'm back!" Jaejoong announced as he and Yoochun got into the living room. "Sorry it took us so long to get back. We had a run in with the new guard." He and Yoochun looked at each other and bursted out laughing again.
"Okay hyung, now please sit down and hand me the chips. I'm starving." Changmin said with very little interest in his voice.
Junsu just laughed. Jaejoong and Yoochun sat on the carpet and started talking again. And Yunho? He was sitted on the couch in the farthest corner, already trying to control his emotions, lest he get that feeling of jealousy again and start snapping at them.
"Hey, hyung, alright there?" Yoochun asked when he saw Yunho sulking by himself.
Yunho looked up and glared at the clueless Micky. "What? Can't I be in peace for a while without you guys all getting into my case?" He snapped, and by this time, Junsu, Changmin and Jaejoong were all looking at him.
Yoochun rasied his hands. "Okay, okay... I didn't mean anything. I'm sorry."
"Right." The other muttered.
Jaejoong had enough. He stood up and walked over to Yunho.
"JUNG YUNHO, what on earth is your problem!?"
Yunho just smirked and shook his head. He got up from the couch, wanting to just get away from Jaejoong.
"What?! Is that all you can do?" Jaejoong pushed him, causing him to fall back on the couch.
Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin were all shocked. They've never seen Jaejoong get this mad before. Immediately, Junsu and Yoochun struggled to hold him back.
"Are you fracking going to tell us why you've been this way or not?!" Jaejoong glared at Yunho.
Finally, after being silent for sometime, Yunho stood up. "I told you, you won't understand."
Jaejoong freed his arms from Junsu's and Yoochun's grips. "You three, stay outside. I'll talk to him first." Changmin, Junsu and Yoochun didn't say anything and followed what their hyung said. As soon as the three were out of the dormitory, Jaejoong started.
"DAMN YUNHO! TELL ME NOW! TELL ME IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE PART OF THIS BAND ANYMORE!"
"Wow! Jaejoongie's exploded!" Junsu whispered to the other two as he kept his ears close to the door. Yoochun immediately slumped to the space beside Junsu, and Changmin, losing to Yoochun, struggled for the little space at the foot of the door.
"Jaejoong, you don't know what you're talking about!" Yunho fought back. "It's not anywhere near that at all.. Not at all..."
"Then what is it!???"
"You want to know? You want to know why I'm like this!??!?!" Yunho asked, shaking.
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Jaejoong could swear that he didn't hear it right.
It couldn't be right.
"Jaejoong, I don't know how, I don't know when. I just did okay?" Yunho continued, his voice starting to break.
"I just... I love you." The younger boy whispered.
Jaejoong stood there, unable to move.
Yunho just looked at him and broke down. "I'm sorry. I know I'm not acting like myself. I didn't meant to. I really didn't." He said as he sank down to the couch. He looked up at Jaejoong, as though waiting for him to say something. Impossible, but he prayed that somehow, Jaejoong would understand, he would take him in his arms...
But he didn't. He continued to stare at Yunho... His face expressionless, and his blank eyes, boring to Yunho, piercing him right through his heart... And after a moment Jaejoong shook his head and turned away.
"Jae...Jaejoong..." He started in a whisper.
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"Jaejoong... Don't go."
But Jaejoong was already out of the door.
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"Hyung! Hyung! HYUNG! What happened?!?!?!" Changmin asked as Jaejoong came out of the dorm.
"Get in. Don't ask." Jaejoong replied instead, firmness in his voice. "Yoochun, just don't mind Yunho. There's food in the fridge, just reheat it. Leave the dishes in the sink, I'll do it as soon as I get back."
"But hyung..." Junsu started.
"I said get back inside."
Changmin, Junsu and Yoochun went back to the dorm, as Jaejoong headed for the elevator.
***
Yunho continued to cry. He shouldn't have told him... He shouldn't have... He blamed himself for being foolish to think that Kim Jaejoong would accept him... That Jaejoong would feel the same way for him.
Kim Jaejoong rushed out of the building...And started to run. He didn't know where he was going...He didn't care. There were too many things for him to think about, worry about... Too many things that he still couldn't take and couldn't understand.
The way Yunho's been acting... Their arguments... And what Yunho said a few minutes ago... It was too much.
The memory of Yunho breaking down...
Jaejoong continued to run... Letting the cool Seoul night air hit his face...
He didn't know what to think... Yunho...
Yunho loves him.
Author mish18
Chapter 1/?
Rating PG; RPS
Genre Romance, Angst?
Fandom - Pairing DBSG - JaeHo
Summary One feels for the other, but couldn't bring himself to say anything. He's jealous, he's angry, and they couldn't understand him because they don't know... He doesn't know.
A/N ^^;; Annyeong. xD This is my first time writing anything JaeHo--or anything yaoi for that matter. ^^; Please excuse the grammatical errors and typos ^^' I wrote this over a year ago, but only posted it now.
"God, Yunho! What is your problem?"
"You're asking me? How can you be so dense, huh, Jaejoong?"
"What did I do this time?!!!" Jaejoong asked, roughly brushing his hair with his hand, making it fall messily over his face.
Yunho sighed exasperatedly and shook his head. "Never mind. You'll never understand."
"See? How would I ever understand if you don't tell me anything at all?" Jaejoong said, raising his voice. "All you ever do is get mad at me, walk out on me, without telling me what the problem is."
Yunho didn't reply, and turned away from him instead.
Jaejoong walked closer to Yunho, and laid a hand on his arm. "Come on, tell me what this is all about." Jaejoong have always been the comforting one in the group, and even if this gesture didn't mean much to him, it meant so much, and in a very different way to Yunho.
Again, Yunho remained silent, his back facing Jaejoong still.
Sensing that he won't be able to get anything out of his bandmate, Jaejoong let go of his arm. "Alright. If this keeps up, we'll all end up cleaning bathrooms. I'll leave you now. But I hope you realize that if we don't get to work out whatever your problem is soon, DBSG will really get in trouble." With that, Jaejoong walked out of the room and slammed the door behind him.
Yunho was left alone.
Alone to think.
His problem? His problem is Jaejoong. Jaejoong and himself. Jaejoong and his feelings for him.
You see, Jaejoong and Yunho have been friends for quite a long time already. And they're bestfriends, and are almost like brothers. Okay, and so maybe to Jaejoong, Yunho is his bestfriend among the group, and he treats him like a brother he never had.
But it's not like that for Yunho at all.
To him, Jaejoong is more than a bestfriend, and certainly not a brother. He has fallen for him. HARD. And Jaejoong doesn't have a single idea about it.
'Damnit, Yunho. Get your act together.' He told himself. He knew, that if he continues to act all weird and jealous around Jaejoong and the rest, it would create conflict.
___________________________
"Hyung, how did it go with Yunho hyung?" Junsu asked as he switched the channel. Jaejoong just came in to the living room where Changmin and Junsu were watching television.
"Bad. He snapped at me and told me I was dense and said that I wouldn't understand what his problem was anyway." Jaejoong shrugged, sitting on his favorite couch, which was across the sofa where Junsu and Changmin were seated together.
"What did you do to make him walk out on us anyway?" Changmin said as he took a handful of popcorn, eyes still on the television.
"I don't know. He seems to be irritated with me all the time."
"Maybe you should avoid him for a while." Changmin suggested.
"Hm, I guess I should." He replied, standing up. "Anyway, I'll just go down to the cafe to get a drink. Anything you want me to get for you?" Jaejoong asked the two.
"Two bags of chips for me." said Changmin.
Jaejoong looked at Junsu. "And you?"
"I'll just have a steamed bun."
"Alright. I'll be back in a while." Jaejoong said as he went out.
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An hour later...
"Eh, Junsu, where's Jaejoong?" Yunho asked as he walked in to the living room where Junsu and Changmin were still watching tv.
"Went down to get food." Changmin said, eyes glued to the tv.
"And Yoochun?"
"We haven't seen him since we came back from the photoshoot." Junsu answered.
"Oh, alright." said Yunho shortly, and went back to his room again.
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"Did you see his face?" Someone said, laughing.
"Yeah! He looked like he saw a ghost!" Another laughed.
Yoochun and Jaejoong opened the door to the Dong Bang dormitory, both close to tears from laughing. At this time, Junsu, Changmin and Yunho were in the living room.
"Hey you guys, I'm back!" Jaejoong announced as he and Yoochun got into the living room. "Sorry it took us so long to get back. We had a run in with the new guard." He and Yoochun looked at each other and bursted out laughing again.
"Okay hyung, now please sit down and hand me the chips. I'm starving." Changmin said with very little interest in his voice.
Junsu just laughed. Jaejoong and Yoochun sat on the carpet and started talking again. And Yunho? He was sitted on the couch in the farthest corner, already trying to control his emotions, lest he get that feeling of jealousy again and start snapping at them.
"Hey, hyung, alright there?" Yoochun asked when he saw Yunho sulking by himself.
Yunho looked up and glared at the clueless Micky. "What? Can't I be in peace for a while without you guys all getting into my case?" He snapped, and by this time, Junsu, Changmin and Jaejoong were all looking at him.
Yoochun rasied his hands. "Okay, okay... I didn't mean anything. I'm sorry."
"Right." The other muttered.
Jaejoong had enough. He stood up and walked over to Yunho.
"JUNG YUNHO, what on earth is your problem!?"
Yunho just smirked and shook his head. He got up from the couch, wanting to just get away from Jaejoong.
"What?! Is that all you can do?" Jaejoong pushed him, causing him to fall back on the couch.
Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin were all shocked. They've never seen Jaejoong get this mad before. Immediately, Junsu and Yoochun struggled to hold him back.
"Are you fracking going to tell us why you've been this way or not?!" Jaejoong glared at Yunho.
Finally, after being silent for sometime, Yunho stood up. "I told you, you won't understand."
Jaejoong freed his arms from Junsu's and Yoochun's grips. "You three, stay outside. I'll talk to him first." Changmin, Junsu and Yoochun didn't say anything and followed what their hyung said. As soon as the three were out of the dormitory, Jaejoong started.
"DAMN YUNHO! TELL ME NOW! TELL ME IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE PART OF THIS BAND ANYMORE!"
"Wow! Jaejoongie's exploded!" Junsu whispered to the other two as he kept his ears close to the door. Yoochun immediately slumped to the space beside Junsu, and Changmin, losing to Yoochun, struggled for the little space at the foot of the door.
"Jaejoong, you don't know what you're talking about!" Yunho fought back. "It's not anywhere near that at all.. Not at all..."
"Then what is it!???"
"You want to know? You want to know why I'm like this!??!?!" Yunho asked, shaking.
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Jaejoong could swear that he didn't hear it right.
It couldn't be right.
"Jaejoong, I don't know how, I don't know when. I just did okay?" Yunho continued, his voice starting to break.
"I just... I love you." The younger boy whispered.
Jaejoong stood there, unable to move.
Yunho just looked at him and broke down. "I'm sorry. I know I'm not acting like myself. I didn't meant to. I really didn't." He said as he sank down to the couch. He looked up at Jaejoong, as though waiting for him to say something. Impossible, but he prayed that somehow, Jaejoong would understand, he would take him in his arms...
But he didn't. He continued to stare at Yunho... His face expressionless, and his blank eyes, boring to Yunho, piercing him right through his heart... And after a moment Jaejoong shook his head and turned away.
"Jae...Jaejoong..." He started in a whisper.
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"Jaejoong... Don't go."
But Jaejoong was already out of the door.
___________________________
"Hyung! Hyung! HYUNG! What happened?!?!?!" Changmin asked as Jaejoong came out of the dorm.
"Get in. Don't ask." Jaejoong replied instead, firmness in his voice. "Yoochun, just don't mind Yunho. There's food in the fridge, just reheat it. Leave the dishes in the sink, I'll do it as soon as I get back."
"But hyung..." Junsu started.
"I said get back inside."
Changmin, Junsu and Yoochun went back to the dorm, as Jaejoong headed for the elevator.
***
Yunho continued to cry. He shouldn't have told him... He shouldn't have... He blamed himself for being foolish to think that Kim Jaejoong would accept him... That Jaejoong would feel the same way for him.
Kim Jaejoong rushed out of the building...And started to run. He didn't know where he was going...He didn't care. There were too many things for him to think about, worry about... Too many things that he still couldn't take and couldn't understand.
The way Yunho's been acting... Their arguments... And what Yunho said a few minutes ago... It was too much.
The memory of Yunho breaking down...
Jaejoong continued to run... Letting the cool Seoul night air hit his face...
He didn't know what to think... Yunho...
Yunho loves him.