Just thoughts
I've been talking a lot about change lately, but I don't know if its there. Have I changed? Am I making a difference? I really can't tell. Sometimes I think yes and other times I think I am worse. So hard to tell. In a purely physical sense there is a difference. I've changed my space. Cleaned it up, removed some clutter. It feels better. Even my body has changed. It is in the process of relearning things. Suppose to make me better. Spiritually I think I am in a better place than I was a year ago. Or even 6 months ago. Mentally, I'm not sure. This is where I think I am worse. Where things seem to be breaking down instead of repairing. I am not quite sure what to do and I'm actually scared. Emptionally, well that is still a roller coaster. One that I am not enjoying. I am trying hard to find peace there. I think I found a bit of it, now I just need to embrace that peace.
Its been storming here a lot. Not just rain, but storms. They roll in across the horizon. The thunder rumbling enough to shake the ground. Lightening making the sky day for an instant. Reminds me of inside. The internal struggle. I would say mine, but I can't be the only one who feels this way. That the World is reflecting what is going on inside. It a comfort. Seeing something, someone in the same turmoil I feel. Turmoil isn't quite the right word. There is some suffering, but not all. Change. Making things different then they were before. Hopfully making it better. Does this make sense?
Its been storming here a lot. Not just rain, but storms. They roll in across the horizon. The thunder rumbling enough to shake the ground. Lightening making the sky day for an instant. Reminds me of inside. The internal struggle. I would say mine, but I can't be the only one who feels this way. That the World is reflecting what is going on inside. It a comfort. Seeing something, someone in the same turmoil I feel. Turmoil isn't quite the right word. There is some suffering, but not all. Change. Making things different then they were before. Hopfully making it better. Does this make sense?