Stress
Wow, I haven't felt stressed like this in a long time. I just got back from the musical practice and it ran almost 1 1/2 hours overtime. And random allergies started in the middle of it all. I was just so sick of being there and wanted to go home. The rehearsal was actually supposed to run longer but they let the orchestra leave first. Now I'm home and I still have my English AND Gov't paper to do. My allergies are gone but now I have a headache. It's not that I have a lot of work to do. It just sucks knowing that I won't be able to relax until Monday.
It seems like it never ends... one thing after another coming my way, and if I don't commit then I'm going to be run over. Two big papers are due tomorrow for school while the musical has their opening that night. There's another showing of the musical on Friday night. Saturday, I'm going to a clarinet choir rehearsal (another music group) all morning and afternoon. After, I'm making it to the Saturday night showing of the musical. Sunday, the musical closes with a matinee in the afternoon and then the clarinet choir is performing that night on the other side of the city. There's no time to relax this weekend. As if it wasn't enough, my teachers decided to give us huge work loads with everything being due on Monday. I have a take home Hamlet test, which is going to be really hard. I have a position paper for Government due on Monday also.
Above all that, I haven't even started to study for my AP exams yet and my grade in AP Statistics is so low and embarrassing. The grading period ends this Friday and my progress report is going to look like shit. Oh yeah, and did I mention that I have to work again on Monday? If I don't, my manager will be incredibly mad and I'll just seem like a flake. And there's also the long term English AP project I have to get cracking on.
I don't have my priorities set straight... I never did. How did so many things hit me all at once? I think I asked for it. It's the result of agreeing to do everything. I have to learn how to say no for once. Maybe this will be a good lesson. But I know I've gone through this before, so obviously, I don't learn from my mistakes.
I don't want to complain to anyone about this, especially my mother. She'll just make me quit something. I do want to quit a couple of things. I would be happy not to go to the musical performances and clarinet choir. But I CAN'T. Not because I'm afraid to. Because I've committed and can't pull back. God, I'll be so happy when this whole fucking week, plus Sunday, is OVER. I can't afford to do anything else. Every single free minute I have should be spent on my homework. I'm so behind. I'm going to look like shit tomorrow, but tonight needs to be an all-nighter otherwise my grades will suffer. I'm debating whether or not to skip the first three periods tomorrow so I can sleep. It's going to be another long day. I need to take some Advil. I need to sleep and not wake up until next month.
It seems like it never ends... one thing after another coming my way, and if I don't commit then I'm going to be run over. Two big papers are due tomorrow for school while the musical has their opening that night. There's another showing of the musical on Friday night. Saturday, I'm going to a clarinet choir rehearsal (another music group) all morning and afternoon. After, I'm making it to the Saturday night showing of the musical. Sunday, the musical closes with a matinee in the afternoon and then the clarinet choir is performing that night on the other side of the city. There's no time to relax this weekend. As if it wasn't enough, my teachers decided to give us huge work loads with everything being due on Monday. I have a take home Hamlet test, which is going to be really hard. I have a position paper for Government due on Monday also.
Above all that, I haven't even started to study for my AP exams yet and my grade in AP Statistics is so low and embarrassing. The grading period ends this Friday and my progress report is going to look like shit. Oh yeah, and did I mention that I have to work again on Monday? If I don't, my manager will be incredibly mad and I'll just seem like a flake. And there's also the long term English AP project I have to get cracking on.
I don't have my priorities set straight... I never did. How did so many things hit me all at once? I think I asked for it. It's the result of agreeing to do everything. I have to learn how to say no for once. Maybe this will be a good lesson. But I know I've gone through this before, so obviously, I don't learn from my mistakes.
I don't want to complain to anyone about this, especially my mother. She'll just make me quit something. I do want to quit a couple of things. I would be happy not to go to the musical performances and clarinet choir. But I CAN'T. Not because I'm afraid to. Because I've committed and can't pull back. God, I'll be so happy when this whole fucking week, plus Sunday, is OVER. I can't afford to do anything else. Every single free minute I have should be spent on my homework. I'm so behind. I'm going to look like shit tomorrow, but tonight needs to be an all-nighter otherwise my grades will suffer. I'm debating whether or not to skip the first three periods tomorrow so I can sleep. It's going to be another long day. I need to take some Advil. I need to sleep and not wake up until next month.