i just want to dance
it is 3am and brandon and i are walking down the streets of downtown boise making our way back to my apartment. we are calling every girl we know in our phone's. it feel's sort of pathetic. i felt 17 years old again. we are drunk and horny. i dont like the feeling, but i dont want to be alone on this night.
the party earlier wasnt as great as i had hoped for. a lot of it had to do with sean boone getting into a motor cycle accident and a lot of people were at the hospital with him.
steven played. we all smoked in my closet. i wanted E. i called my E hook up. no one else wanted to roll with me on this particular night. it made me feel like a druggy for even asking. no one want's to party hard with me.
i realize that life is not very long and it doesnt make much sense, so i have decided, that with the time i have hear- i just want to dance.
so we ended up not getting the E. maybe next weekend.
Sophi showed up at my apartment. i didnt even invite her. she showed up with amanda. it was awkward. i didnt say much to her. she watched me the whole night, every time i talked to another girl. she got irratated and wanted to leave. i had to go down stairs to let up an old friend, frosty.
i had not seen frosty in a while, he was here with his girlfriend from montana. she was nice and i could tell she liked him a lot, his last girlfriend was satan. and frosty is such a good guy, he deserves someone who will appreciate him.
on our way up. sophi was walking down the hall, leaving. i stopped her. i told her not to leave. she looked up at me and said "okay", and she put her arm around me.
this is awkward.
after people started leaving and thing's got sort of gay, we decided to make our way to downtown boise near the bar's where steven could play to make some money.
we ran in to a bunch of people. steven made about $39 dollar's. i ate at the pita pit.
then brandon and i decided to go people watching, and explore boise's "night life".
we saw a tall transvestite who could berly walk, we followed her for awhile.
then we ran into a drunken cook named bob. while talking with bob another girl approached him. we eneded up sitting with her and her friend's. they asked if brandon and i were gay together, we told them that we were. and we talked about our relationship and how we met, our live's, etc. we sat with them for about 20 minutes.
then we left them and met some guy named Jay. Jay wanted to fuck brandon and i. we told him that it wouldnt be free. so we stood on the corner trying to come to some sort of an arangement. he wanted to know what we were willing to do, for how long, for how much. we gave him sean's number and told him that it was our's and that my name was "sean". he told us he would call us later in the night.
then we made our way back to my apartment. no luck with ladie's it was after 3am, most people were sleeping. we stopped by my brothers apartment. there were a little but of people there.
then brandon got a text from emily. there was a party, we decided to go.
the party was a penis fest. i wanted to leave the moment i got there.
me, brandon, paul, emily and a friend of her's all went back to my place. i almost immediately fell asleep on my couch. my strobe was still going off.
then everyone left. i went to sleep.
i feel so unsatisfied.
i want something more.
i dont think i want something more from sophi.
i havent even met anyone that is worth working for something more with.
maybe i am not worth anything to anyone either.
the party earlier wasnt as great as i had hoped for. a lot of it had to do with sean boone getting into a motor cycle accident and a lot of people were at the hospital with him.
steven played. we all smoked in my closet. i wanted E. i called my E hook up. no one else wanted to roll with me on this particular night. it made me feel like a druggy for even asking. no one want's to party hard with me.
i realize that life is not very long and it doesnt make much sense, so i have decided, that with the time i have hear- i just want to dance.
so we ended up not getting the E. maybe next weekend.
Sophi showed up at my apartment. i didnt even invite her. she showed up with amanda. it was awkward. i didnt say much to her. she watched me the whole night, every time i talked to another girl. she got irratated and wanted to leave. i had to go down stairs to let up an old friend, frosty.
i had not seen frosty in a while, he was here with his girlfriend from montana. she was nice and i could tell she liked him a lot, his last girlfriend was satan. and frosty is such a good guy, he deserves someone who will appreciate him.
on our way up. sophi was walking down the hall, leaving. i stopped her. i told her not to leave. she looked up at me and said "okay", and she put her arm around me.
this is awkward.
after people started leaving and thing's got sort of gay, we decided to make our way to downtown boise near the bar's where steven could play to make some money.
we ran in to a bunch of people. steven made about $39 dollar's. i ate at the pita pit.
then brandon and i decided to go people watching, and explore boise's "night life".
we saw a tall transvestite who could berly walk, we followed her for awhile.
then we ran into a drunken cook named bob. while talking with bob another girl approached him. we eneded up sitting with her and her friend's. they asked if brandon and i were gay together, we told them that we were. and we talked about our relationship and how we met, our live's, etc. we sat with them for about 20 minutes.
then we left them and met some guy named Jay. Jay wanted to fuck brandon and i. we told him that it wouldnt be free. so we stood on the corner trying to come to some sort of an arangement. he wanted to know what we were willing to do, for how long, for how much. we gave him sean's number and told him that it was our's and that my name was "sean". he told us he would call us later in the night.
then we made our way back to my apartment. no luck with ladie's it was after 3am, most people were sleeping. we stopped by my brothers apartment. there were a little but of people there.
then brandon got a text from emily. there was a party, we decided to go.
the party was a penis fest. i wanted to leave the moment i got there.
me, brandon, paul, emily and a friend of her's all went back to my place. i almost immediately fell asleep on my couch. my strobe was still going off.
then everyone left. i went to sleep.
i feel so unsatisfied.
i want something more.
i dont think i want something more from sophi.
i havent even met anyone that is worth working for something more with.
maybe i am not worth anything to anyone either.