is it time for me to go out of my mind yet?
i dont know what to do. my movements are in quick twitches. i feel like im drowning or something. i dont want to feel this way anymore. i wish i could pick my head up out of the water, but the harder i try, the harder i fail. its so hard to think when your head is throbbing. im falling apart just trying to hold myself together. nice guys finish last, but i seem to be losing every race im in. i dont even make it to the finish line. what is it about me that needs to be changed? my ugly fucking face? my fat fucking body? anything to make me a little bit attractive. im sick of being left in the dust by all these better looking guys. nobody will be better to you than i am.