When I can't sleep.
So school starts back up in about 6 hours. Naturally, I can't sleep. I dunno why I am all jittery. I'm not the one going to school. I think I feel like this is my 'back to reality' moment. The past few months have been... arduous.
I was very sick the first two weeks of November. Over my birthday of course. Strep throat and a virus. 2008 was the year for me having all sorts of fucked up illnesses/injuries/drama. Then it was off to WA to see my family, my grandpa in particular. There was family drama so bad. My mother is a fucking basket case. I couldn't even begin to get into how much I feel that this boyfriend of hers is like a cancer on her life. But then as nice as he seems I don't like him because he's just a few years older than I am. When I got home it was already the first week of December and it was time for Christmas shopping and cards and holiday programs and stuff. Then, the Monday before X-mas our fucking car died 2 blocks from Jaundice's work. Guess what... our engine locked up. We've had it a year and it needs a brand new engine. We don't have $6K to buy one so we had to work out a deal with his parents to help us get one. *sigh*
Christmas was okay. As usual Jaundice bought way more for me than I did for him. We had agreed on a $125 limit for each of us to buy gifts from one another and Monk and for stocking goodies. I stuck to it. He did not... and it was his damn idea!!! Men. We had dinner at his parents and when we came home he finally broke down and told me about the car's engine. I balled my eyes out of course. I'd been hopeful it was something simple, less than $500 so we could work it out easily. But no.
The good things going on in my life right now are strangely enough... my roleplaying site and my book blog. The RPG is... exhausting. I never anticipated that I would create one of the most popular RPGs I've ever done based off of a genre I knew squat about 18 months ago. Yet it keeps going strong. I've had a lot of support though. I have a good staff and though we've had some communication issues and I have been angry a lot about it recently it does make me proud. I miss having a vampire/werewolf rpg to be in but the X-Men thing is okay. The original spin of it has a lot of people who've read the comics complimenting me so I know I did something right. The book blog is also a bit exhausting. Sometimes writing about what I've read is tough. But I have had great response from a publisher! They've been sending me books to read and review for free. Gotta enjoy that aspect of it. Plus I got to interview one of my new favorite authors and will be having her guestblog next month. Sooo excited. Now I just need to build up a better audience for it. Of course I get to do a book giveaway next month too so if any of you know anyone who likes to read send them over to http://rhireading.blogspot.com/ and tell them to 'Follow' the blog if they can.
There's so much other news and random thoughts passing through my head I could mention and they're probably why I can't sleep. My cousin announced his girlfriend was pregnant on Christmas Eve. My grandma told me she has emphazema (sp?) on Christmas night. Jaundice and I are planning to try and have another child soon. I'm frustrated with my grandpa's being so sick and dying but am so powerless about it I have to NOT think about it or I can't function. I hate pretending it isn't happening but I dunno what else to do. Bleh.
Well anyways... I think I'm gonna go sort out some books I need to review and maybe clean my desk off to see if that won't help me calm my jitters or something. Yeah.
I was very sick the first two weeks of November. Over my birthday of course. Strep throat and a virus. 2008 was the year for me having all sorts of fucked up illnesses/injuries/drama. Then it was off to WA to see my family, my grandpa in particular. There was family drama so bad. My mother is a fucking basket case. I couldn't even begin to get into how much I feel that this boyfriend of hers is like a cancer on her life. But then as nice as he seems I don't like him because he's just a few years older than I am. When I got home it was already the first week of December and it was time for Christmas shopping and cards and holiday programs and stuff. Then, the Monday before X-mas our fucking car died 2 blocks from Jaundice's work. Guess what... our engine locked up. We've had it a year and it needs a brand new engine. We don't have $6K to buy one so we had to work out a deal with his parents to help us get one. *sigh*
Christmas was okay. As usual Jaundice bought way more for me than I did for him. We had agreed on a $125 limit for each of us to buy gifts from one another and Monk and for stocking goodies. I stuck to it. He did not... and it was his damn idea!!! Men. We had dinner at his parents and when we came home he finally broke down and told me about the car's engine. I balled my eyes out of course. I'd been hopeful it was something simple, less than $500 so we could work it out easily. But no.
The good things going on in my life right now are strangely enough... my roleplaying site and my book blog. The RPG is... exhausting. I never anticipated that I would create one of the most popular RPGs I've ever done based off of a genre I knew squat about 18 months ago. Yet it keeps going strong. I've had a lot of support though. I have a good staff and though we've had some communication issues and I have been angry a lot about it recently it does make me proud. I miss having a vampire/werewolf rpg to be in but the X-Men thing is okay. The original spin of it has a lot of people who've read the comics complimenting me so I know I did something right. The book blog is also a bit exhausting. Sometimes writing about what I've read is tough. But I have had great response from a publisher! They've been sending me books to read and review for free. Gotta enjoy that aspect of it. Plus I got to interview one of my new favorite authors and will be having her guestblog next month. Sooo excited. Now I just need to build up a better audience for it. Of course I get to do a book giveaway next month too so if any of you know anyone who likes to read send them over to http://rhireading.blogspot.com/ and tell them to 'Follow' the blog if they can.
There's so much other news and random thoughts passing through my head I could mention and they're probably why I can't sleep. My cousin announced his girlfriend was pregnant on Christmas Eve. My grandma told me she has emphazema (sp?) on Christmas night. Jaundice and I are planning to try and have another child soon. I'm frustrated with my grandpa's being so sick and dying but am so powerless about it I have to NOT think about it or I can't function. I hate pretending it isn't happening but I dunno what else to do. Bleh.
Well anyways... I think I'm gonna go sort out some books I need to review and maybe clean my desk off to see if that won't help me calm my jitters or something. Yeah.