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so why is it that when i am completely content with the direction a relationship, or possible relationship is going something happens to through it all out of whack. leaving me completely muddled and confused wondering which direction i should even look, let alone go. i want to put all my faith in one, i want to make the other one completley non-existent make one dissapear from my life.. but no. im not allowed, after i have pushed on out of my mind, he sends me his number.. and says "me and you need to get together again, i had fun last time.. call me 000-0000" the most ridiculous part is i want to call him. then i see the sweet ones face in my mind, and the way his eyes lingered in my gaze.. laughed at my smile, and how his arms held me close and didn't want to let go, do i want the nice one? the sweet amazing one? or just the ridiculous one, who failed to know i existed ubtil he realized i was more than he'd ever planned.
Which Way Do I Go?
I'm scared. Scared of being too attached for my own good. afraid that hes just pretending, that this whole thign is going to fall through. That My hopes are getting raised just to be squashed onto the ground. i've been hurt too many times. I don't want this to become a re-run. i want it to be soemthing new. something worth it. somethign that will make me fall head over heels in love and not be afraid of it. i want to be happy.
I WANT TO BE IN LOVE.
let me fall in love. let me stay in love. don't let me fall. i'll break.
i'll shatter. that will be the end.
Which Way Do I Go?
I'm scared. Scared of being too attached for my own good. afraid that hes just pretending, that this whole thign is going to fall through. That My hopes are getting raised just to be squashed onto the ground. i've been hurt too many times. I don't want this to become a re-run. i want it to be soemthing new. something worth it. somethign that will make me fall head over heels in love and not be afraid of it. i want to be happy.
I WANT TO BE IN LOVE.
let me fall in love. let me stay in love. don't let me fall. i'll break.
i'll shatter. that will be the end.