im an asshole
hey guys i havent put a new entry in for a couple days well i got suttin good for u guys about friday. well we had a snow day, i was sad i wanted school. and i was bored most of the day bnut had plans to hang out with the beautiful krissy, those almost got ruined. but tony ended up coming and we got rides. i was the biggest ass friday by the way. before hand she specifically said she didnt want me tryin to cuddle or anything. so the douche that am let my emotions take over and i started holding her and stuff like that. she was pissed i can tell, but she didnt say anything. and while we were watchin the end of american wedding i leaned over and i said im sorry she said y and i told her i would talk to her later about it........ so along came later and she told me she was getting mad that i was doing it and i asked her y she didnt tell me to stop or suttin and she didnt know. so then i found out once again that she doesnt like me and i honestly dont get y i mean im a nice guy, i treat her well im not an asshole...... i just dont get it. i think i pissed her off more cause i kept askin her whats wrong with me y cant i ever get the girl i want? and shes like theres nothing wrong with u and i kept asking like 5 times. and if i wasnt a dick at her house i might have had a shot but of course not i blew it like always. but krissy i got a message for u......
Krissy- i know i was bein a really big dick but can u please forgive me? i want to at least be friends i know u dont like me but i cant help what i do or say sometimes. i love u and thats the bottom line i would do anything for u, to make u happy i would do it. i would even take a bullet for u. i know it sounds crazy but its true, your the only girl i have truly loved and when i am around u it is like heaven and i never wanna leave i just wish u would feel for me the way i feel for u. and this may also sound crazy too but i honestly would propose to u if we were older, i think that u r the one for me. but apparently im not the one for u so i mind as well just give up cause it will never happen even though this will be the hardeest thing ive ever done i will try.~~ love tom