life
yea so the last few days have been a roller coaster ride, on tuesday i found out which songs DEATH OR GLORY (my clash tribute band) is playin for my talent show so i learned those and had a deep convo with jimmy whelan i love talkin to him cause he makes me feel so good about myself. he treats me like a brother, but i can talk to him not like shawn. it was one of the best convos ive ever had, but it was a sad topic and i ended up crying :-(. But jimmy was there for me and i apreciate that if u read this jimmy I LOVE YOU like a brother. and wanna know what started this convo TONY yes TONY my "best friend". he knows how i felt about him and krissy hangin out without me there (explain more in a minute.). he could have had the decency to ask me if i wanted to hang out with them or asked if i cared if he asked no big deal but this gave me a different look on him and krissy. So jimmy was there for me he comforted me and made me feel better about it and gave me a good perspective on things. Wednesday was pretty boring things seemed like the were going downhill with krissy. we didnt talk it just seems like she didnt want to be with me. so i thought some more about it and went to bed. (bad day). Thursday i went over krissy cause i hadnt seen her in like 2 weeks. so i get there shes on the comp, no big deal then i realize she on the phone to guess who shes talkin to TONY of course so she wasnt talkin to me for a few hours so i felt like laying down i started to go to sleep then she comes and starts to hang out with me. it pissed me off soooooooo much how she had me come over and ignored me for 3 hours i really should not have wasted my time yea so back to the whole tony hangin with krissy thing i didnt feel comfortable with that knowing the went out before adn she still had feelings for him. she left me once already and went out with him y wouldnt she do it again. i was thinkin in my head shes either gonna dump me soon or shes cheating on me i went with the dumping situation. still havent brought it up yet. :-/ so then we rented cabin fever it was horrible it was kinda funny how bad it was. so then we watched the munsters, so i layed down and tried to cuddle and i knew something was wrong the whole night cause she wasnt talking to me dun dun dun so she says tom i look over look away and try to sleep or something to avoid it i knew it was coming and i didnt want it to happen so she broke up with me :-/ im kinda unsure what to feel anymore because i do love her and want to be with her but i just dont think she likes me anymore so i may just look for a really close friend to go to prom with hopefully melissa or heather :-D i love them they r the best. Friday my first day at work with the new computers, i had my own drawer. it was really that busy because i wasnt alone for once, i worked with chris i liked workin with him he gets his job done and he does it right. wasnt as busy as i thought it would be. Today didnt really do anything important i wanted to see melissa at work but noone wanted to walk with me :-(( i miss melissa. so me, ben, amber and johnny cashed cans and had a fire on ambers porch. then went inside and watched Toxic Avenger. Great Movie!!!!!!!!!! if ur reading this go rent it its awsome. so im not really doing anything i read james' new lyrics and they r awsome. tommorow i got practice with 2 of my 3 acts in the talent show, dunno how we r gonna do em both in like 2 and a half hours but we will. well thats about it for now so i leave on that note. goodnight to all