i probably.
man, so i probably should have gone to hang out rather than stay at home. I just, maybe I'm starting to pull away a bit from my friends. It's not something I mean to do, they've got their girlfriends now and I just don't want to be a 5th wheel.
even if i'm invited, and they want me to be with the group... i just don't wish to intrude.
is that bad of me?
and our lake powell trip sounds like it is actually going to happen.. i'm so excited to go, but i don't want to get my hopes up because ....i usually get FUCKED when that shit happens.
i don't think i have shown anyone but my parents how much i really want to go, because i don't want to be disappointed.
i'm being a girl, and i wish i would have gone out tonight. but part of me just wanted to stay home.
i just hope it doesn't reflect that i don't want to be around my friends... because it's not true.
it would have just been amanda, kody, chris and myself. but, i think chris should invite the girl he's dating rather than hanging out with me.
i'm odd. i know.
even if i'm invited, and they want me to be with the group... i just don't wish to intrude.
is that bad of me?
and our lake powell trip sounds like it is actually going to happen.. i'm so excited to go, but i don't want to get my hopes up because ....i usually get FUCKED when that shit happens.
i don't think i have shown anyone but my parents how much i really want to go, because i don't want to be disappointed.
i'm being a girl, and i wish i would have gone out tonight. but part of me just wanted to stay home.
i just hope it doesn't reflect that i don't want to be around my friends... because it's not true.
it would have just been amanda, kody, chris and myself. but, i think chris should invite the girl he's dating rather than hanging out with me.
i'm odd. i know.