Thoughts Of HATE!!!!
I have been doing some thinking. Actually ALOT of thinking. This is to those who know me or to those who I have encounters with. I just want to take the time to say this. I know not many people will read this but it must be said.
To my mother:
I hate you for the fact that you did drugs. I hated the way you never really paid attention to me when we lived together. I hated it when you would go out and do drugs like herion,speed,lortabs,morphine,elavil,Zanax, and any other drug you could get your hands on. I do however like the fact that at least you tried to get better. I tryed to help you as much as I could. Probably more than anyone in the family. I still love you. You are my mother and that I would never want to change. You have tought me very valuble lessons on life some of them from doing nothing at all.
To my father:
You have the nerve to call yourself a father. Like you have ever been one. You have done nothing but put me done and discourage me ever since I was little. Not only that but a parent should never rais or hit a kid with his/her fist. You sit here and try to tell me that the only thing I am ever going to amount to in life is nothing but working at a fast food joint flipping burgers. Ha well I have news for you asshole. I happen to have alot of plans and goals that I am working on at the moment to achieve. I still love you a little but that love fades fast. When all you have are memorys of your father calling you and idiot and mentally bashing you most your life one tends to not like that person anymore. I know you did some nice things for me but when you take the nice things and the mean things and wiegh them out I am willing to bet the mean things would OVER weigh the nicer things by A LOT!.
To those who bullied me:
To those who have done mean things to me in the past yes I may sound crazy by saying this but you have tought me a lesson. Life is tough and thier are assholes out there. Allthough however that does not change my mind. If I where ever to come in contact with one you who bullied at some point in my life I would find the greatest joy in making your life a living hell until you either knew what you put me thru or you where DEAD!.
To those whom have caused me pain:
I want to say to those whom I have dated or have cause me emotional pain. I would like nothing more except to to trade palces with you in that time and place so that you would know exactly how fucked up you where. With your actions & words. So you would know how I felt. So you would know the pain you caused me, so you would know my anguish, so you could feel how deep of a scar you left me.
I am a nice person but, I am no longer here for people to step all over. The time has come. The moth has come out of the cacoon. From now on anyone who steps over me,uses me,tortures me,abuses me is going to be droped from my life completly and utterly. I don't give a shit if I have known you since childhood. I am sick and tired of being a nice guy to everyone and getting shit in return. So head this warning. It is time for a change especially me. No longer will I take crap from people. Even if I have to fight for what I say I will. If it meens getting my ass kicked I dont give a fuck. At least I had the balls to stand up for myself and what I belive.
To my mother:
I hate you for the fact that you did drugs. I hated the way you never really paid attention to me when we lived together. I hated it when you would go out and do drugs like herion,speed,lortabs,morphine,elavil,Zanax, and any other drug you could get your hands on. I do however like the fact that at least you tried to get better. I tryed to help you as much as I could. Probably more than anyone in the family. I still love you. You are my mother and that I would never want to change. You have tought me very valuble lessons on life some of them from doing nothing at all.
To my father:
You have the nerve to call yourself a father. Like you have ever been one. You have done nothing but put me done and discourage me ever since I was little. Not only that but a parent should never rais or hit a kid with his/her fist. You sit here and try to tell me that the only thing I am ever going to amount to in life is nothing but working at a fast food joint flipping burgers. Ha well I have news for you asshole. I happen to have alot of plans and goals that I am working on at the moment to achieve. I still love you a little but that love fades fast. When all you have are memorys of your father calling you and idiot and mentally bashing you most your life one tends to not like that person anymore. I know you did some nice things for me but when you take the nice things and the mean things and wiegh them out I am willing to bet the mean things would OVER weigh the nicer things by A LOT!.
To those who bullied me:
To those who have done mean things to me in the past yes I may sound crazy by saying this but you have tought me a lesson. Life is tough and thier are assholes out there. Allthough however that does not change my mind. If I where ever to come in contact with one you who bullied at some point in my life I would find the greatest joy in making your life a living hell until you either knew what you put me thru or you where DEAD!.
To those whom have caused me pain:
I want to say to those whom I have dated or have cause me emotional pain. I would like nothing more except to to trade palces with you in that time and place so that you would know exactly how fucked up you where. With your actions & words. So you would know how I felt. So you would know the pain you caused me, so you would know my anguish, so you could feel how deep of a scar you left me.
I am a nice person but, I am no longer here for people to step all over. The time has come. The moth has come out of the cacoon. From now on anyone who steps over me,uses me,tortures me,abuses me is going to be droped from my life completly and utterly. I don't give a shit if I have known you since childhood. I am sick and tired of being a nice guy to everyone and getting shit in return. So head this warning. It is time for a change especially me. No longer will I take crap from people. Even if I have to fight for what I say I will. If it meens getting my ass kicked I dont give a fuck. At least I had the balls to stand up for myself and what I belive.