frustrated....
ugh!
somehow i lost one of my purses. its got another purse inside of it, it has makeup and a wallet and my digital camera and idk what the fuck to do. i was missing it like 3 months ago too but i figured i would find it over time and it hasn't happened at all. so now i'm getting worried because a lot of stuff in there is meaningful to me in different ways and i know i had it. i swear to god i had it somewhere at my house. fuck! if i had a real closet and not just a door with a little room under the stairs. fuuuuck. i looked all in my car, not there. i looked in my closet the best i could, not there. i looked in jessica's closet upstairs, not there. i looked in every drawer i had, not there. and now i have no idea what i should do. i need it. want it. it is so important to me. i just want to cry. i even texted juan asking about it, i texted zuriel. i just don't know where else to turn. i can't think of anywhere it could be. i just worry that it could be gone forever or if someone in my house put it somewhere or if its misplaced or stolen even. it had so many things in it that meant so much to me. i know i had it after warped tour. i know i had it with me when i was dating juan. i had it at the hospital before. i know i had it when i was switching my purses but i don't know where i put it at. i could have sworn that i switched it in my room it makes sense to me. but i know i also had it in my car at a point too. and having it in my car and out of nowhere its gone? it just doesn't make sense. idk where to look.
i need reassurance.
i need to find it.
i'm going crazy.
somehow i lost one of my purses. its got another purse inside of it, it has makeup and a wallet and my digital camera and idk what the fuck to do. i was missing it like 3 months ago too but i figured i would find it over time and it hasn't happened at all. so now i'm getting worried because a lot of stuff in there is meaningful to me in different ways and i know i had it. i swear to god i had it somewhere at my house. fuck! if i had a real closet and not just a door with a little room under the stairs. fuuuuck. i looked all in my car, not there. i looked in my closet the best i could, not there. i looked in jessica's closet upstairs, not there. i looked in every drawer i had, not there. and now i have no idea what i should do. i need it. want it. it is so important to me. i just want to cry. i even texted juan asking about it, i texted zuriel. i just don't know where else to turn. i can't think of anywhere it could be. i just worry that it could be gone forever or if someone in my house put it somewhere or if its misplaced or stolen even. it had so many things in it that meant so much to me. i know i had it after warped tour. i know i had it with me when i was dating juan. i had it at the hospital before. i know i had it when i was switching my purses but i don't know where i put it at. i could have sworn that i switched it in my room it makes sense to me. but i know i also had it in my car at a point too. and having it in my car and out of nowhere its gone? it just doesn't make sense. idk where to look.
i need reassurance.
i need to find it.
i'm going crazy.