Ugh...
The weather (being typical English weather) has gotten 'orrible and damp and drizzly and grey and gloomy and is basically not helping my mood at all. I didn't get the part I wanted for Edinburgh (although my lots of my friends did so I'm happy for them) but that doesn't bother me so much. Sad as it sounds, AG is what's really bothering me. I didn't talk to him at all today. However, he did sit next to me twice and stand next to me in class today. That was nice. I just couldn't concentrate at all and had to use all my willpower to stop myself from staring at him. I have a tendency to stare. Luckily, I managed to keep my glasses off most of the time (which helped since I couldn't see him). He also sat near me at lunch but didn't talk to either me or my friends. He is quite possibly the most painfully shy person I have ever met! I find this utterly adorable but since I am only marginally shyer than him, it makes conversation difficult. Anyway, lunchtime was fun! I had a hilarious conversation with my friends about the pros and cons of having Asperger's syndrome. My closest friend also noticed quite how much I kept staring AG while his back was turned and was very amused. Another friend (who can read me like a book and is also quite close to AG) hasn't noticed my feelings him at all so I must be being more subtle than I think. Anyway, he looked extra pretty today. He has great fashion sense so if I ever do get caught staring at him I can simply say I was just admiring his style.