Thoughts at random...
Thinking back over the years of my life, I am truely amazed at how much a person can change. It's also shocking and amazing how much a person can go through in their loves and still be here today to talk about it. I've been thinking about my life lately. It is so funny how many cahpters I have in it. I have the part where I was poor and neglected, I have the part where I became extremely religious...hmmmm.. the parts where dad left and I became a quiet, scared shell...hmm the drugs... new families... and then theres this whole new chapter with Josh... love in general... this one is the most shocking in my life probably.
People can change how you act and they can change who you are. For instance, Colleen would not even know the person that I am today. I have changed so much and somehow I know she would be disappointed. She saw me as how I truely am. I was a lot nicer, calmer and had more hope and strength. She really bettered my life and it's hard not having her and Cara with me to keep me strong. Maybe that is all up to me now.
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This all is so random, but it's what i've been thinking about here lately. I feel so stuck in limbo right now, I dunno who I truely am.... I do know who I truely love... I guess that's all that matters!