yes.
Almost 3 weeks to the day. Praise the Lord!
God keeps reminding me that all these things are periphery....crap on the side of my dish of life. I like that--imagine ordering it in a restaurant... "Hi, can I get joy and love, but an order of crap on the side? thanks." That's how I feel lately. Drama is crap. People that are mean, right now, they are the crap on the side of my life. The future---that's crap too. That's the pile of crap waiting for me to step in it....ew, and get stuck...focusing on that, rather than on the things I'm called to do right now... As long as my focus is on God, all these things are crap.
I've got blinders on, praise Jesus! I'm more detached and distant than I have been in a long time. But not from friends. I'm actually being quite a little social butterfly...it's weird. i'm detached from all that crap, but peaceful about the outcomes of so many things...and i'm feeling friendly. All of my friends are shocked that i've become so visible in the last 7 or so months. Ah.....it's just good.
People have free will...go ahead and make your choices. I still believe in what I believe. My free will chooses God's will. SO, you can be a baby and go a different direction than where you know you're called just because you're scared...machts nichts. It doesn't matter. Because I'm choosing wisely, my life will be blessed either way. Periphery. (this is to all of humanity...)
In other news...the kids TAKS scores came back. It's better than last year. My Jesus DOES NOT EVER EVER EVER let me down, period. I'm at a crossroads in my school... i need to talk to the superintendent. I need a WORD of confirmation, that what I'm going to say will be okay with my boss. Jesus, please let someone come up to me and tell me exactly what i'm thinking about my job...let that be my confirmation.
I'm happy. I'm going to turn on some hellogoodbye and do some yard work. And then i'm going to cry because i hate yard work, but it has to be done. ugh.
God keeps reminding me that all these things are periphery....crap on the side of my dish of life. I like that--imagine ordering it in a restaurant... "Hi, can I get joy and love, but an order of crap on the side? thanks." That's how I feel lately. Drama is crap. People that are mean, right now, they are the crap on the side of my life. The future---that's crap too. That's the pile of crap waiting for me to step in it....ew, and get stuck...focusing on that, rather than on the things I'm called to do right now... As long as my focus is on God, all these things are crap.
I've got blinders on, praise Jesus! I'm more detached and distant than I have been in a long time. But not from friends. I'm actually being quite a little social butterfly...it's weird. i'm detached from all that crap, but peaceful about the outcomes of so many things...and i'm feeling friendly. All of my friends are shocked that i've become so visible in the last 7 or so months. Ah.....it's just good.
People have free will...go ahead and make your choices. I still believe in what I believe. My free will chooses God's will. SO, you can be a baby and go a different direction than where you know you're called just because you're scared...machts nichts. It doesn't matter. Because I'm choosing wisely, my life will be blessed either way. Periphery. (this is to all of humanity...)
In other news...the kids TAKS scores came back. It's better than last year. My Jesus DOES NOT EVER EVER EVER let me down, period. I'm at a crossroads in my school... i need to talk to the superintendent. I need a WORD of confirmation, that what I'm going to say will be okay with my boss. Jesus, please let someone come up to me and tell me exactly what i'm thinking about my job...let that be my confirmation.
I'm happy. I'm going to turn on some hellogoodbye and do some yard work. And then i'm going to cry because i hate yard work, but it has to be done. ugh.