Alot of changes
And I don’t know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing’s real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I’ve been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me
Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
And I don’t know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
Three months and I’m still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It’s never really over, no
Wake up
Three months and I’m still standing here
Three months and I’m getting better yeah
Three months and....
Three months and I’m still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up
Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
ok so it's been a long time since I wrote anything but there has been alot of changes in my life. First and probably most important I'm officially a college graduate. Scary thought I know. The whole job thing hasnt worked out as I planned. I did get to leave Toy People and Dunks (for the most part). I am now working as a csa for Verizon and I hate it way more than I have ever hated a job in my life. Everyone else I know has these awesome jobs that they love and I'm stuck in this piece of shit place getting yelled at by "intelligent black" women who think they know everything. In other news...I'm single once again. I just didnt have the time or the energy to put into the relationship with peter. What can I say? I did try my best to make it work. I'm just not in a place in my life where I can do the constant attention thing. It wasnt fair to him. I cant say I dont want to be in a relationship. I do more than anything. I see everyone around me happy with their boyfriends or girlfriends and it kills me. I'm the odd ball out. Everyone I go out with it's like their boyfriends are there and I'm third wheel. I know how richie must have felt with me and mark. but whatever the reason I really want to try and make things work with someone. There is someone I have in mind but to be honest I dont think our relationship as it stands now could turn into anything more than friends. Dianna wants to hook me up with Marc's friend Joel, which would be ok if I knew Joel. lol Everything else in life is well different. I realize how unbelieveably protective I am of my friends. Their significant others are never good enough in my eyes and it's finally crashing down on me. Sarah and Thiago are officially together. Trust me I'm happy for her that she found someone but it seems like it was just cuz she was lonely. No matter what the reason was...it makes my life difficult because Thiago and I dont get along. It goes back to when Matt was home from the navy and I'm not going to get into the story but it's the dumbest reason for him not to like me and now it's affecting my relationship with sarah. I just want everything to go the way I want it too. Nothing seems to be working out for me and I'm sick of it. Can something in my life please go right? I dont even care what it is at this point. The job, friends, relationship, anything you wanna give me would be great! well anyways I dont really have anything else to complain about right now.
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing’s real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I’ve been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me
Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
And I don’t know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
Three months and I’m still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It’s never really over, no
Wake up
Three months and I’m still standing here
Three months and I’m getting better yeah
Three months and....
Three months and I’m still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up
Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
ok so it's been a long time since I wrote anything but there has been alot of changes in my life. First and probably most important I'm officially a college graduate. Scary thought I know. The whole job thing hasnt worked out as I planned. I did get to leave Toy People and Dunks (for the most part). I am now working as a csa for Verizon and I hate it way more than I have ever hated a job in my life. Everyone else I know has these awesome jobs that they love and I'm stuck in this piece of shit place getting yelled at by "intelligent black" women who think they know everything. In other news...I'm single once again. I just didnt have the time or the energy to put into the relationship with peter. What can I say? I did try my best to make it work. I'm just not in a place in my life where I can do the constant attention thing. It wasnt fair to him. I cant say I dont want to be in a relationship. I do more than anything. I see everyone around me happy with their boyfriends or girlfriends and it kills me. I'm the odd ball out. Everyone I go out with it's like their boyfriends are there and I'm third wheel. I know how richie must have felt with me and mark. but whatever the reason I really want to try and make things work with someone. There is someone I have in mind but to be honest I dont think our relationship as it stands now could turn into anything more than friends. Dianna wants to hook me up with Marc's friend Joel, which would be ok if I knew Joel. lol Everything else in life is well different. I realize how unbelieveably protective I am of my friends. Their significant others are never good enough in my eyes and it's finally crashing down on me. Sarah and Thiago are officially together. Trust me I'm happy for her that she found someone but it seems like it was just cuz she was lonely. No matter what the reason was...it makes my life difficult because Thiago and I dont get along. It goes back to when Matt was home from the navy and I'm not going to get into the story but it's the dumbest reason for him not to like me and now it's affecting my relationship with sarah. I just want everything to go the way I want it too. Nothing seems to be working out for me and I'm sick of it. Can something in my life please go right? I dont even care what it is at this point. The job, friends, relationship, anything you wanna give me would be great! well anyways I dont really have anything else to complain about right now.