Overwhelmed
I am 100% typing this out because I just cannot seem to get out of my head this weekend. I have a tough case at work and I feel it weighing on me. When a case like this weighs on me I do a variety of things.
I overthink.
I over produce (frantic to get to the part where I actually help this kid)
I fear failure 200% more than typical.
I second guess everything that I do, think, say.
I am frustrated.
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I'm also frustrated that it's 26 degrees outside and I can't run this out of my system.
So- what to do instead?
I keep going down rabbit holes and going down rabbit holes. Let's check in with facts.
Have I done this before? Yes.
Do I have the skills to help this kid? Yes.
Am I able to control every factor? No.
Is me pushing for everything going to make it happen any faster? No.
So what can I do?
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Be there. Be supportive. Trust in those around me. Allow them to work how they see fit and see how the puzzle itself shows up.
Bad things may happen, but each one does not determine failing or helping in these instances.
Let the people who need to know what you are noticing. Talk to speech, talk to OT. Talk to parents about getting him enrolled in these services. Talk about more time in clinic.
These things take time and it's okay.
I am a source of information and support. I am here for all of them, and that alone is enough.
I am emough.
These things will work out, and I am enough. I am here.