i'm back
it's been a few years since i returned to these journals. my weight has gone up and down. i now know that its time for me to return to that wanting self, that need to be thin. im 5'11 and weigh 11 stone 4 pounds eek! i eat like a pig but no more, seriously. im not just writting this for others im writting it for myself. my boyfriend said today which kinda made me want to or need to return here. 'if people want to lose weight they should just do it or be happy with your body'! like its that fucking easy. this is coming from a guy who wears extra small or small clothes and who panics everytime he puts on a bit of weight. well if he feels that if someone should just get on with losing weight if their unhappy then thats what im guna bloddy well do. chewing gum, water and diet coke should keep the cravings away. my first ideal weight is 10 and half stone, doesnt seem impossible therefore i wont give up so easy, then when i reach that weigth itll go down to 10 stone and so forth. little baby steps. wish me luck.