May 02, 2008 11:48
So, I am usually pretty good when dealing with uncertainty and change. Hell, I like to cause chaos!
But lately, I feel like I have way too much uncertainty and it making me very anxious. I haven't been able to sleep at night without working out until exhasuted and drinking some wine.
So be prepared for lame venting (sorry).
Stupid work yuckiness - Do I have a job? Do I want to continue to work in this crazy semi-soulless industry? What the hell do I want to do when/if I grow up? Should I just take this whole experience as a sign to completely change my career?
Stupid home yuckiness - I don't feel like I am actually at home anymore which is causing a lot of stress. I just need to find out where "home" is...I've enjoyed the cities I have visited lately. I could certainly see myself moving. I need to find a place where I can go out and have fun at night but still enjoy the great outdoors often (that's why I dug Vancouver & Ottawa).
Stupid love-life yuckiness - I don't know how I manage to mess that one up every single time, but I definitely do. I think I am a wicked bad communicator and I seem to always give people the wrong impression or annoy the shit out of them. What am I going to do? Absolutely nothing...
You would think that with my last name, I would have no issues in the realm of love...that's definitely not the case.
I guess I just need to focus my energies and figure this shit out.
Okay, done venting....sorry.
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