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i think ive had enough. no, i know ive had enough.
and i dont know why i keep coming back. or why i put up with it. because i know it just makes it worse, every time. but ahhh. youre so two faced. thats how it seems to me. its like you are all talk. and its not like i want anything. just maybe fuckin recognition. or something. so i dont feel this. like shit. because i dont know you. or its like when i see you, its all a show. all pretend, and its not the real thing. or the real you.
ive thought about it. but like i said it is up to you. and it seems like you made your mind up long ago. and it just makes me mad. that you could i dunno, be so, flaky? im not sure if thats the word. such a tease? but thats not it either. because that wasnt teasing. and if you thought it was then fuck. it was a little ummm to in depth. and i know it shouldnt be a journal entry. but i doubt youll call. like you promised.
and i dont know why i keep coming back. or why i put up with it. because i know it just makes it worse, every time. but ahhh. youre so two faced. thats how it seems to me. its like you are all talk. and its not like i want anything. just maybe fuckin recognition. or something. so i dont feel this. like shit. because i dont know you. or its like when i see you, its all a show. all pretend, and its not the real thing. or the real you.
ive thought about it. but like i said it is up to you. and it seems like you made your mind up long ago. and it just makes me mad. that you could i dunno, be so, flaky? im not sure if thats the word. such a tease? but thats not it either. because that wasnt teasing. and if you thought it was then fuck. it was a little ummm to in depth. and i know it shouldnt be a journal entry. but i doubt youll call. like you promised.