Switches from IM Window to Journal Updater:
I don't know... I have to quit, it's not a big deal, but it just makes me feel shitty, like I can never finish anything, which is true most of the time. But when I do, I need to sit down and really think about how my life is going, hmm... let's see: 17, had a job, no car or car insurance (didn't even start saving up), bad grades, lazy, pessemist attitude. Why can't I realize how bad that really is and fucking get going, I don't get it. My friend layed the dead truth right in front of me today, even though he was maybe joking, I understood it, and realized that that's how it really is, a small part of it. Small part or big it plays a big role in my life, a very bad role. I gotta start thinking more optimistically and get a fucking move on. And I'm disappointing my parents more than usual, big suprise huh? Man I'm glad I don't have a journal to let other people read it cause nobody does read it.