-28-~when friends are friends~
i did something this weekend i haven't done in a long time. i did something that i've been advised against. my trust for others was compromised and others trust for me was compromised as well. but like i sed, it was something i hadn't done in a long time... i went with my instincts and i did something for myself.
it was a cold nite and my truck had trouble starting. thge windows fogged once the heater got going. shortly before getting in and cranking it up i called somone like i promised them i'd do. i was thinking about way i told her i'd stop by. i was thinking about the way she said it would be ok when i asked.
when i finally got warm i left and was at her house soon after. i went in and we talked. we talked about a lot of things but all the conversation was pretty empty. maybe its just me, but i think we both new that something bigger than conversation was on the way.
we sat on her couch with my arms wrapped around her. she looked at my and we kissed. i think it was then, or maybe just before, that thats where i really wanted to be, even if no one in the world understood why, even if i didn't, i just knew thats where i wanted to be.
the only problem with all this happiness one of my best friends decided to freak out over it all. we once made a bargain once about who we wouldn't date in accordance with the others wishes. after this bargain i told her she could date those on my 'not-date' list because it wasn't my place to tell her who she could and couldn't date, but i still didn't think it a good idea. the person i spent my evening with was on her 'not-date' list and we she found out, she flipped.
i dont no what to do... i feel like she just doesn't want to understand. o well... i'm happy for the first time in a while, even tho i'm kinda not.
[end]
-j-
it was a cold nite and my truck had trouble starting. thge windows fogged once the heater got going. shortly before getting in and cranking it up i called somone like i promised them i'd do. i was thinking about way i told her i'd stop by. i was thinking about the way she said it would be ok when i asked.
when i finally got warm i left and was at her house soon after. i went in and we talked. we talked about a lot of things but all the conversation was pretty empty. maybe its just me, but i think we both new that something bigger than conversation was on the way.
we sat on her couch with my arms wrapped around her. she looked at my and we kissed. i think it was then, or maybe just before, that thats where i really wanted to be, even if no one in the world understood why, even if i didn't, i just knew thats where i wanted to be.
the only problem with all this happiness one of my best friends decided to freak out over it all. we once made a bargain once about who we wouldn't date in accordance with the others wishes. after this bargain i told her she could date those on my 'not-date' list because it wasn't my place to tell her who she could and couldn't date, but i still didn't think it a good idea. the person i spent my evening with was on her 'not-date' list and we she found out, she flipped.
i dont no what to do... i feel like she just doesn't want to understand. o well... i'm happy for the first time in a while, even tho i'm kinda not.
[end]
-j-