-25-~worst part about being me~
theres a lot of sh|t that comes with being a person, and i'm a good example with that, but i think i have found the worst part of me... i can say what i want to a crowd, i can be who an audience wants me to be (though not very well) but i can't tell the person i want to know most what i'm thinking. why was i given so much to say and only riddles to express it all? ah well....
i hate all this angst. i hate having to get a hot head. i hate having to act like some cocky @$$hole. i just want people to tell me their problems with me to my face or JUST SHUT UP. maybe things will calm down in the next week. thanksgivings over and december starts 2moro. i turn 17 in 23 days. christmas break.... soo far away...
it doesn't seem like i should be turning 17. i feel like i'm still a scared middle school kid, trying to deal with my own immaturity and that of others. trying to have fun. trying my best and worrying if its good enuff. i feel like i should be truning like 12...
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i hate all this angst. i hate having to get a hot head. i hate having to act like some cocky @$$hole. i just want people to tell me their problems with me to my face or JUST SHUT UP. maybe things will calm down in the next week. thanksgivings over and december starts 2moro. i turn 17 in 23 days. christmas break.... soo far away...
it doesn't seem like i should be turning 17. i feel like i'm still a scared middle school kid, trying to deal with my own immaturity and that of others. trying to have fun. trying my best and worrying if its good enuff. i feel like i should be truning like 12...
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