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Father was not happy with the outcome of tonight's dinner. He feels it was my fault; I somehow deflected attention away from him. Up until that moment he seemed so pleased with the attention Lord Blackheart seemed to be paying me, but then....
I don't know what I could have done better. Only that I failed in my duty to him. He says I betrayed him, that I have shamed the family name. That alone was hard to endure. But then, to compare me to her, to praise her loyalty, to proclaim she was the more faithful, "truly loyal" daughter.... I am the most loyal of all! Only I defend the name Kahn with my life! Kitana is fickle and weak of will; she doesn't have what it takes to carry on the family name! Only I do!
I will show him, show them both. I will prove that I am the worthy heir, the strength that will carry on our legacy. I will bring power and honor to the house of Kahn and my father, and no one will stop me. Not even my sister.
I have offered to reject Lord Blackheart's proposal, but Father stated he would need to consult with his advisers before making a decision. He's instructed me to keep the lines of communication open with Lord Blackheart, though he made it clear he only chose me because Lord Blackheart seems to favour me. "If it was up to me I'd have Kitana do it; she has proven far more capable." That bitch.
[Private to Lord Blackheart]
Father humbly thanks you for your attendance to dinner last night, as well as your most generous offer. He will contact you in a few days when he has made his decision.
[[Not all the little details of the dinner have been hammered out yet, but since the basic events are agreed upon, it's easy to predict Kahn's reaction. Poor Mileena. XD Her own journal has smears from blood drops she attempted to wipe away, but to the best of my knowledge the journals in Istavaan don't have the ability to express things like that to other journals (do they?), so no one shall know of Mileena's suffering. XD]]
Father was not happy with the outcome of tonight's dinner. He feels it was my fault; I somehow deflected attention away from him. Up until that moment he seemed so pleased with the attention Lord Blackheart seemed to be paying me, but then....
I don't know what I could have done better. Only that I failed in my duty to him. He says I betrayed him, that I have shamed the family name. That alone was hard to endure. But then, to compare me to her, to praise her loyalty, to proclaim she was the more faithful, "truly loyal" daughter.... I am the most loyal of all! Only I defend the name Kahn with my life! Kitana is fickle and weak of will; she doesn't have what it takes to carry on the family name! Only I do!
I will show him, show them both. I will prove that I am the worthy heir, the strength that will carry on our legacy. I will bring power and honor to the house of Kahn and my father, and no one will stop me. Not even my sister.
I have offered to reject Lord Blackheart's proposal, but Father stated he would need to consult with his advisers before making a decision. He's instructed me to keep the lines of communication open with Lord Blackheart, though he made it clear he only chose me because Lord Blackheart seems to favour me. "If it was up to me I'd have Kitana do it; she has proven far more capable." That bitch.
[Private to Lord Blackheart]
Father humbly thanks you for your attendance to dinner last night, as well as your most generous offer. He will contact you in a few days when he has made his decision.
[[Not all the little details of the dinner have been hammered out yet, but since the basic events are agreed upon, it's easy to predict Kahn's reaction. Poor Mileena. XD Her own journal has smears from blood drops she attempted to wipe away, but to the best of my knowledge the journals in Istavaan don't have the ability to express things like that to other journals (do they?), so no one shall know of Mileena's suffering. XD]]