Birthday Girl
Today was my birthday - the big 2-0....
and it was alright i guess. i think couple days ago i finally accepted the fact i was turning 20, and stopped freaking out a bit.
but i still don't like it... ha.
anyway, i got some really awesome gifts from my mom and a lot of family called me.
and a bunch of people wished my happy bday on facebook.
i didn't actually do anything today though. stayed in my room most of the day - worked on some hw but mainly just relaxed... alone.
it wasn't too bad though because i had a busy weekend and a super busy week coming up!
on friday i met my art history class at the Metropolitan Museum and during our trip a boy in my class asked me
if he could take some pics of me in the museum when our trip was over. (for a photography class)
i said yes, even though i was really shy/nervous, just because i can't say no to people.
i didn't have to do much, and it only took about 20 mins, but i still felt awkward and nervous the whole time i modeled for him.
he emailed me some pics that night and i all i could think was "i look so fat..." ugh. but its over with. and he seemed grateful.
saturday was awesome though - i got this last minute call to work backstage at some fashion shows.
3 shows, for bridal designers. i was a dresser, so obviously i dressed and undressed the models.
holy crap, the models were soooo beautiful. and soooo skinny. despite the countless numbers of pictures and videos i've seen,
i've never actually seen a professional model in person. ughh made me feel so inferior! yet incredibly motivated too..
it was kinda depressing though, cause they had SO much food backstage, so i was standing with the other dressers eating half a donut.
a model came over and was like, "oh there's donuts!" and goes over and eats one. i was like, okay SO not fair! haha.
there were 1 or 2 who i didn't see eat anything, but suprisingly the others all ate as much as the "normal" people.
which just made all the rest of us, sigh and complain to each other, haha.
but when i wasn't in ED mode i was incredibly high off the whole experience.
the adrenaline rush you get during a runway show when everyone is running around backstage and you have 10 seconds
to get a girl out of and into a 50 lb wedding dress with 50 hooks and zippers... ahh its indescribable.
i was so happy the whole time, it just confirmed in my head that i AM supposed to be in this industry.
I. LOVE. IT.
andddd i got an internship with this really cool clothing brand - i start tomorrow!
i'm nervous but excited...
but my midterms also start this week and i am already behind on work... so thats not good.
AND i've been binging and screwing up the progress i had made.
considered buying lax yesterday... but resisted.
tomorrow is a new day though, and whenever i want to eat, i'm just going to think about those models...
:)
sorry this was so long...
