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my mom called me this morning to tell my great aunt died.
i guess everyone is upset about it, i mean my dad and his side of the family.
i'm ok though. it wasn't totally unexpected and i didn't know her very well.
i just feel bad for my dad and grandparents who are probably upset and know have to stress over the funeral and stuff.
been binging a lot the past couple days, which sucks obviously.
i purged yesterday, which i had told myself i wouldn't do,
because i purged the previous day too and there was a little blood.
sorry if thats gross...
i had been doing so well restricting too! i had lost about 9 lbs, and now i've gained most of it back.
i'm going to try really ahrd to get my shit back together though...
i'm so much more happy and friendly when i'm losing, and when i'm gaining i get depressed and completely shut down.
so it seems obvious, stop binging! i wish it was that easy...
my younger sister B and i have been emailing each other, and her last email made me happy.
"Hey! I was telling one of my friends the other day about all the things you've made. they were really impressed. so am i. [...]
Keep on doing what you do because no one is better at it than you. counting the days till you come home because they don't count unless you are here."
i can't wait to go home, but at the same time i don't want to yet because i have so much weight i want to lose.
i know i say this all the time though, and its probably annoying.
its just that its all i think about 24/7.
oh, and before i end this i just wanted to thank everyone who commented on my last post!
you guys are so nice and i don't know where i'd be without you <3
i guess everyone is upset about it, i mean my dad and his side of the family.
i'm ok though. it wasn't totally unexpected and i didn't know her very well.
i just feel bad for my dad and grandparents who are probably upset and know have to stress over the funeral and stuff.
been binging a lot the past couple days, which sucks obviously.
i purged yesterday, which i had told myself i wouldn't do,
because i purged the previous day too and there was a little blood.
sorry if thats gross...
i had been doing so well restricting too! i had lost about 9 lbs, and now i've gained most of it back.
i'm going to try really ahrd to get my shit back together though...
i'm so much more happy and friendly when i'm losing, and when i'm gaining i get depressed and completely shut down.
so it seems obvious, stop binging! i wish it was that easy...
my younger sister B and i have been emailing each other, and her last email made me happy.
"Hey! I was telling one of my friends the other day about all the things you've made. they were really impressed. so am i. [...]
Keep on doing what you do because no one is better at it than you. counting the days till you come home because they don't count unless you are here."
i can't wait to go home, but at the same time i don't want to yet because i have so much weight i want to lose.
i know i say this all the time though, and its probably annoying.
its just that its all i think about 24/7.
oh, and before i end this i just wanted to thank everyone who commented on my last post!
you guys are so nice and i don't know where i'd be without you <3