I can't hold it off

[mirror_aura]

I feel it coming again.

I don't know how long I can keep on smiling.

Some one asked me yesterday, "You look happy. What are you smiling about?"

I must be pretty good.

I wonder how long I can keep this going.

I'm so afraid.

Sooner or later I'm going to fall.

I will spiral again.

It's already started.

It gets worse and worse until it destroys everything.

I don't know if I will be able to pick up the pieces this time.

I'm afraid this time it will finish me.