FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOD DAMMIT!!!! WHY DO I ALWAYS SEEM TO BE THE LUCKY ONE!?? ROB PISSES ME OFF SOOOOOO MUCH! HE ONLY HAS 10 FUCKING DAYS LEFT AND ALL HE WANTS TO DO IS PLAY HIS FUCKING GAME, GODDAMN OBLIVION, GO TO THE GYM AT WEIRD FUCKING TIMES, AND WATCH DAMN BASEBALL! HE NEVER WANTS TO DO ANYTHING UNLESS IT'S WITH HIS FRIENDS GETTING DRUNK AT FUCKING KELLY'S! URGH! I.E. TONIGHT I ASKED HIM IF HE WANTED TO GO TO A HIBACHI GRILL, AND I WOULD PAY FOR FUCKS SAKE! AND HE SAID ALL HE WANTED TO DO WAS "GO TO THE GYM AND THEN SLEEP"! I GET BACK FROM THE HIBACHI WITH MY ROOMMATE AND WHAT IS HE DOING? HE'S GETTING READY TO GO OUT WITH HIS FRIEND!!!! MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD! I CANT STOP YELLIING! I CANT STOP CRYING LIKE A LITTLE BITCH! AND WORST OF ALL I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT ROB! I'm probably never going to see Rob again after he leaves in 10 days, and that tears me apart, it's like a razor blade cutting my damn heart out! i had a cute little gay retarded picnic all planned out for tomorrow. it was gonna be at the beach and i was gonna go get all chicked up just for it to. I even got some cute shoes to wear with my MHR skirt (MHR for those of you who don't know, is a crap Catholic private school i went to in kindergarten) in general, i was gonna look damn hot, now i dont fucking want to do it at all, it was so great though, the best idea in the entire world, next to actually starting to love Rob in that wierd way i do, that way i always seem to get fucked over in the end. why does my life repeat it's mistakes, when will i learn? When will i figure out that true love doesn't exist? love in general at least. when will i figure out that MARINES JUST FUCKING SUCK IN GENERAL???! some don't though, Jamison was amazing, a little phycho with his knife, which is falling apart, ooops, but he's in Okinawa, too far away, and soon Rob will join in being, and i will never see him again, just a few messages on myspace, maybe he'll even fucking call ME! instead of me always calling him.
break>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>whew, i feel better now, Goose helps a lot, he's an ex-thespian too :)all we had to talk about was "Rent" and now i'm better, not angry, but still upset. i'm gonna go smoke. peace
break>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>whew, i feel better now, Goose helps a lot, he's an ex-thespian too :)all we had to talk about was "Rent" and now i'm better, not angry, but still upset. i'm gonna go smoke. peace