Repetition
Ok so you think you can avoid shit. You'd think that once it's over thats it, it wont matter anymore. You get dumped (or mutual break up whatever the fuck), you move on. but the things is you really havent. You find out she wants to go with someone else and he's a complete ass. You figure what the hell. Maybe she'll learn her lesson and want you back. Until then you realize that this is just a small little plot you only want to happen. Its not like it really is. Then you notice that she still thinks of you the same way she did why you broke up (or mutual whatever the fuck!). So why get mad? Why get upset? She doesnt like you anyway. She may be your first luv, but who, other than your parents, have kept their first luv? Not only that its like the whole school is on a rampage that will only lead to their demise. relationships falling apart one by one over the stupidest reasons and lies. People believing what others people are saying instead of their "partners" or whatever. Which is exactly why She dumped me. She believed everyone else over me. The first time she was right. The second time was some dick who had the guts to call me a friend. What do i do? I just sit back and let people do what they want. I just lie there like a mat and let them walk over me to avoid the puddle that is their problem. See, thats what i am. basically a scape goat. Not anyones turn-to guy. Just the clown or "blame" person. This school is so pathetic. You'd think you'd get used to it. Even my psycologist told me to stay away from girls my age. I am "too mature for them. the younger girls can't appreciate what you are trying to give them," is what i was told by countless friends. So maybe i should listen to them. but who would date a 17 year old anime finatic?
It sux being on both sides of this situation. I know what all of my problems are. I know i got great friends that got my back and look out for me. But at the same time i look at what i dont have. I see that i dont need her. She doesnt even like me so that means just shut the fuck up and go find another girl. Then on the other hand i'm so Emo about it. It's like "boo hoo, she doesnt want me, i want her, i'm so alone" kinda thing. That's how i'm feelin right now. So any way~~~~~~~~~~~
yeah the ball was great. I was out there tryin to do my thing and dance and one girl that likes me, i'll call her C, was mean muggin and gettin all mad cause i was dancing with, well, i'll call her J. (For those of you who know me and who i'm talkin about i would appreciate it if you kept it on the low-low). The She (i'll call her X) was dancin with some dude and i got all pissed off and started crying like a little bitch. I know i had no reason to. But i did.
On saturday, we went out to eat at some Greek restaurant. My dad let me take two shots of some alcoholic drink that made me very hungry. So i ate off of everyones plate after i finished my food. I also stole the shot glass in a very stylish asian/black kinda way. It was very fun. We spoke of Family Guy and it got my mind off of X. Yeah. So the bell is gonna ring and i gotta go. I'll post more in a few...
It sux being on both sides of this situation. I know what all of my problems are. I know i got great friends that got my back and look out for me. But at the same time i look at what i dont have. I see that i dont need her. She doesnt even like me so that means just shut the fuck up and go find another girl. Then on the other hand i'm so Emo about it. It's like "boo hoo, she doesnt want me, i want her, i'm so alone" kinda thing. That's how i'm feelin right now. So any way~~~~~~~~~~~
yeah the ball was great. I was out there tryin to do my thing and dance and one girl that likes me, i'll call her C, was mean muggin and gettin all mad cause i was dancing with, well, i'll call her J. (For those of you who know me and who i'm talkin about i would appreciate it if you kept it on the low-low). The She (i'll call her X) was dancin with some dude and i got all pissed off and started crying like a little bitch. I know i had no reason to. But i did.
On saturday, we went out to eat at some Greek restaurant. My dad let me take two shots of some alcoholic drink that made me very hungry. So i ate off of everyones plate after i finished my food. I also stole the shot glass in a very stylish asian/black kinda way. It was very fun. We spoke of Family Guy and it got my mind off of X. Yeah. So the bell is gonna ring and i gotta go. I'll post more in a few...