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worst weekend of my life. so much drama piled up in such a short span of time that i cracked. i have never cried so easily. all someone had to do was look at me funny and i was in tears. but it was all selfish hypocracy. i realized that i'm a hyporcrite because people ask me for help with relationship issues, but i can't even deal with my own. i can't handle my own love life--i am trying so hard to be happy in order to force myself to get over someone i love more than life itself, yet i find myself crawling back whenever something goes wrong. i put myself together with people who are shitty to me or that i never get to be with. and yet i think i have the ability to coach other people? what the hell is wrong with me?
and i was being selfish because i spent the entire weekend wishing things would work out for me. every now and then, i even added a "for once" at the end of that wish, just to be extra-melodramatic. for once, for once.
i'm so weak, and i hate it.
and i was being selfish because i spent the entire weekend wishing things would work out for me. every now and then, i even added a "for once" at the end of that wish, just to be extra-melodramatic. for once, for once.
i'm so weak, and i hate it.