A tragic comedy of errors
It takes a moment of profound weakness in me to concede defeat. To make me wish that I had been born differently and then, maybe then my personal relationships wouldn't be so utterly fucked. But at the same time, I can't wish for such a thing because for me to be born any other way than what I was would erase everything that makes me me-everything that I love about me. But here it is, I'm gonna say it. I wish I had been born another color. There. I allowed myself a moment of weakness. FUCK YOU AUNT PAM FOR BEING FACEBOOK POLICE!!!!
You know how they say you can overcome anything with love. Yeah, they never met my mother. I'm quite literally sure now that if Chris were black, I would have 0 problems regarding my mother/Christopher relationship. How sad. How utterly sad. Its even more tragic because Chris's family adores me, and I them.
Oh one more fucked up thing. No matter how much my mom sticks my face in the dirt, I'll still love her, defend her, and remain a 'dutiful' daughter to her. When she says jump, I say how high unquestioningly. Every. Fucking. Time. I'm hardwired to this, can't change my programming. And its utterly sad.
Writing on LJ because family now crawls over facebook. I wish they didn't learn how to use the internet like I do.
Note to Kubo: ok we've had awesome awesome awesome, now its boring again.
You know how they say you can overcome anything with love. Yeah, they never met my mother. I'm quite literally sure now that if Chris were black, I would have 0 problems regarding my mother/Christopher relationship. How sad. How utterly sad. Its even more tragic because Chris's family adores me, and I them.
Oh one more fucked up thing. No matter how much my mom sticks my face in the dirt, I'll still love her, defend her, and remain a 'dutiful' daughter to her. When she says jump, I say how high unquestioningly. Every. Fucking. Time. I'm hardwired to this, can't change my programming. And its utterly sad.
Writing on LJ because family now crawls over facebook. I wish they didn't learn how to use the internet like I do.
Note to Kubo: ok we've had awesome awesome awesome, now its boring again.