friends, and more whining
I need to clean up my friends page, and delete most of these stupid communities that prevent me from looking at my friends list. It's sad but true. I think I'm going to wipe my community list clean and get some shiny new icons. That will coax be back into livejournal land.
What do I even say here anymore? Not a lot. I feel pretty isolated from most people I know nowadays. Thanks to twitter and FB I just shout out into the nothingness and get nothing back. I call people in the bits of time I have between walking from place to place, but I always feel bad when I have to go eat or get to my final destination. I feel like friends deserve more time than that, but I just don't have it right now.
I like my groups of "people", but they aren't really friends, they're people I run with, do martial arts with, work with. But they serve as interaction, which sounds kind of harsh, but it is what it is, and some of them are slowly becoming friends, but only through common interest.
Beeeeeeep.
Speaking of activities. I am far too busy. I don't know why I am so busy, but I seem to take available space and pack it up with stuff. I always have, but its gotten nuts. I now am running the half marathon, doing kung fu, toastmasters, working full time and will be assisting to teach a KML comedy writing class in the fall. It sounds like I'm bragging, but I'm exhausted. I am envious of people who are'nt as busy, and part of me wants to give up EVERYTHING. Well, except the job. But everything else? Overrated. I want a vacation. A nice chunk of time off to catch up on my adventure games and talk to people on the phone, which is basically how I survived school breaks.
The only problem with this is that half of me wants the nothingness, and the other part of me wants to do it all. The day after I told myself that after the marathon is over (oct 18th!) I was going to take 3 months off of everything, Marissa tried to convince me to to Chinese Acrobatics with her, and it nearly worked. After the chinese acrobatics was in, I thought "well, whats one little chinese acrobatics class?" and then thought, well if I'm doing that, surely I can still do kung fu twice a week...and I've always wanted to take voice lessons...get back into musicals...swing dancing...
Sigh.
What do I even say here anymore? Not a lot. I feel pretty isolated from most people I know nowadays. Thanks to twitter and FB I just shout out into the nothingness and get nothing back. I call people in the bits of time I have between walking from place to place, but I always feel bad when I have to go eat or get to my final destination. I feel like friends deserve more time than that, but I just don't have it right now.
I like my groups of "people", but they aren't really friends, they're people I run with, do martial arts with, work with. But they serve as interaction, which sounds kind of harsh, but it is what it is, and some of them are slowly becoming friends, but only through common interest.
Beeeeeeep.
Speaking of activities. I am far too busy. I don't know why I am so busy, but I seem to take available space and pack it up with stuff. I always have, but its gotten nuts. I now am running the half marathon, doing kung fu, toastmasters, working full time and will be assisting to teach a KML comedy writing class in the fall. It sounds like I'm bragging, but I'm exhausted. I am envious of people who are'nt as busy, and part of me wants to give up EVERYTHING. Well, except the job. But everything else? Overrated. I want a vacation. A nice chunk of time off to catch up on my adventure games and talk to people on the phone, which is basically how I survived school breaks.
The only problem with this is that half of me wants the nothingness, and the other part of me wants to do it all. The day after I told myself that after the marathon is over (oct 18th!) I was going to take 3 months off of everything, Marissa tried to convince me to to Chinese Acrobatics with her, and it nearly worked. After the chinese acrobatics was in, I thought "well, whats one little chinese acrobatics class?" and then thought, well if I'm doing that, surely I can still do kung fu twice a week...and I've always wanted to take voice lessons...get back into musicals...swing dancing...
Sigh.