Past Present Future
Guh! Why can't you rely on people not to lose important things that you trust them with?
In other news, in two months I will have finished my BA education. I don't know whether I'll officially have my degree by then, because I don't know when exactly the graduation ceremony is. In any case, that's kind of a scary thought. I guess it would be even scarier if it didn't feel so unreal. Part of my mind refuses to believe that I will ever graduate and move to Finland and get a job. Because that's not how my life is right now. Right now my life is England and university. It's hard to imagine anything else.
It was the same thing when I graduated from MH. I'd been planning for ages to come to England, but in a way I didn't really believe it would actually happen. It was always far away in the future, which might as well be a realm of fantasy. As the date of my departure came closer and closer, I realised that this was actually real. And I got terrified.
Gradually university moved from distant, unreal future to everyday present. And soon it will become distant, unreal past, just like MH is to me now, even though for those three years it was completely real.
It's nice to make changes. To move on. Not to get too stuck in a routine. But sometimes I feel that it would be nice to hold on to some things. Or to relive the past - just for a day. Maybe just to convince yourself that it really happened.
Life is strange.