Important Author's Note
For the past three and a half months since my last story update, I've been hit with the reality of adulthood and felt such hopelessness when I found out that the USB stick that was holding all of my future stories for this blog, no longer worked. Both of these situations as well as my already loss of motivation, created an even more loss of motivation.
That morning when I had woken up to find that my USB had stopped working, I immediately wanted to give up on writing DBSK fics entirely because every story that I had planned here in my Chaptered Fic Masterlist, was now gone and I didn't want to waste my money and retrieve everything in my USB even though I should if I really cared about them. In the midst of all these, now lost future Chaptered fics that I had planned to write, one of them was a One-Shot fic, that I had spent most of my emotional energy into writing for the past two years.
It was a story that I had planned to upload once I had finished with Only You and now it's all gone. For a moment, it sent me to a negative place but somehow I had managed to take a step back to think about why this was happening. About a couple of months prior to this incident, I had tried countless times to finish the story, but I wasn't able to. I had most of the story done, it was the last scene that I had a hard time putting into words. It wasn't the problem of what to write because I planned the last scene out. It was a scene that I had wanted to write since I started the story ... but because it took two years to finish ... all the emotions that I had going into the story, dwindled, and with my current mindset, I wasn't able to understand the main character's motivation anymore. It was then, that I realized that maybe the loss of this One-Shot, was a good thing since I couldn't relate to the story anymore. So after two days of worrying about my dead USB stick, I stopped thinking about it entirely and decided to move on with my life.
And I know that the rest of my new stories will be gone as well and I'm frustrated about it, but since I've already have a written record of what the summary for these stories were, I can sort of remember what my plan was for them and so, it made it okay for me to not worry about them so much. But ... I might regret it later when I do start on those stories.
P.S. If anyone is curious about that One-Shot that I've given up on ... you can comment below or message me about it and I'll give you a summary of what it was about and the reasoning behind why I wanted to write it in the first place. =)
And oh my god, look at this picture of Jaejoong!!! (The second picture) I'm all smiles and giddy like a proud mother hen but at the same time, I'm like, 'FUCKKKKKKKK ... this man is so handsome.'
And I can't even begin to talk about this man either ... These two are making me like JaeMin again, not that I lost my love for them ... but I haven't found any inspiration involving them ever since Changmin left for the military.
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