May 11, 2005 23:26
One of the best feelings:
driving on a deserted street at night, with all the windows down and the sunroof open; listening to Do as Infinity or Kiroro...crying, singing, laughing, whatever I happen to feel like doing at the time. No one else can hear me or see me. I don't have to worry about what anyone else thinks, and I can just be myself...and it's such a nice feeling. Why can't I do that all the time? I mean, I really do try. Maybe that's my problem...When I try so hard to "be myself", it makes everything feel forced -_-
ah well, If I just stopped caring so much, it would be much better ^^
but yes, I've learned to love driving alone, even if I get lost and don't know what direction I should be going; atleast I know that I, and no one else, can insure that I arrive at my next destination, wherever that may be.
I've been thinking, and I'm afraid that the people I care about most don't know how much they mean to me. And It's my fault, because I don't say it. I need to find some way to express it, soon. If I don't, I know I will regret it.
"There's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got. You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime"