"The grass was greener, the light was brighter.."
And so I see the second selection for uni course stuff has been run, and that the results are in, and it says I either forgot to accept a course or chose to decline the courses I applied for. Sigh. I was so certain I had in fact accepted/still flagged myself as interested in them. Then again, the preliminary results seemed that I was like the 500th reserve, so maybe it wouldn't have made a difference anyhow..
I've been eyeing more course with open spots at umu.se and there is a net course for English C, teeeempting. Although I'd miss the actual IRL lectures and classmate stuff, which is perhaps what I need most training with, spoken English. I either turn into this either faaast talking nutter (not too unlike my default Swedish speech mode, ahem), or I have a hard time pronouncing stuff and stumble over various syllables.
But first things first, there's that program essay in Library and Information Science to be dealt with, and a few course points remaining for some other stuff. And yet, it feels like I'm in a giant hamster wheel, pre-determined future and what not.. and I wonder what the point is with even trying if the possible paths are unchanging. 'cause I find myself doubting more and more whether I'll work in the library/information science field. Many caretakers seem to have assumed I'm one of those temping people studying care&health stuff, which feels odd. I'm so not nursing/health care people material! But if I don't wrap this LIS essay up, I'll just go argh for not having studied English instead of LIS. So yes, bad selfimage/motivation/awareness = not so perky future plans/aspirations.
Anyhow, cousin's wedding was real fun, I'm very happy for her and her hubby :)
..but I didn't quite succeed in taking pics of all the couples attending ze wedding. I was a bit too shy when it came to approaching most, Scylla actually did a lot better in that department. I guess it is indeed more cheery with someone actually talking a bit to one before snapping a shot, as opposed to running by like a scared paparazzi ;) But on the other hand often one wants those non-posed pics, and those are hard to get if people freeze up or start their modelling routine. Also, so many shots that were blurry or overly bright, and then there's the fact that the camera couldn't seem to autofocus quick enough for my tastes. And when I did try my little flash fiddle thing it turned out soso, so in other words, I still suck at the technical stuff and need [to miraculously acquire funds to get] a better lens.
Teehee, this was really a fun way of starting a wedding ceremony btw *grins*
Aaaaand it's just after 9pm, and I've been seriously contemplating going to bed for at least two hours already. While it's nice with money and all, it's going to feel so nice not having to work fulltime and at so odd hours and on weekends. I'm not a very social person overall, and after having been in this line of work it does feels weird suddenly being so social and outgoing.
Oh, I just pondered the other day.. enneagram stuff + bsg cylons = cuuurious, n'est-ce pas?
I'm missing French as well, speaking of which.