I Remember
Title: I Remember
Length: One-shot
Pairings: Fernando Torres/Sergio Ramos
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Fluff, Angst
Disclaimer: This is not true at all. I do not own Sergio or Nando, neither do the songs.
Author’s Notes: I'm baaaack! And with angst mood as well :P This isn't actually a new story, I've posted it before in another website, but I love this story so much that I wanted to share it with all of you. I rewrote some part to set Sergio in and of course, to make this more decent (hopefully). Happy reading! :)
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I leaned on my chair, exhaling in relief because I didn’t have to stand up all the way in this hot little bus that even wasn’t good enough to be a chicken cage. I should have never take this kind of bus, but I had no other choice since all my cars suddenly declared World War III against me this morning and I had to take them all for repairing. Even the party in Iker’s place - which I refused to attend because I wasn’t in the right mood - seemed pretty tempting now.
I looked outside the window. The rain started to pour down. I sighed. This could be the sign of some fucking traffic jam on the way, and it meant that I would have to spend more time on this bus than I had expected before.
Since it was already too dark to read and I wasn’t in the mood of doing nothing, I decided to listen to some music, in in the hope that it would enlighten my mood. I took my iPod out of my backpack and set the headset on my ears. Putting it on Shuffle, I leaned my head again on the back of my chair and closed my eyes, letting the music played.
Suddenly, a familiar melody flew to my ears, and my eyes snapped open immediately in response.
I remember the way you glanced at me, yes I remember
I remember when we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
I remember all the things that we shared
And the promise we made, just you and I
I remember all the laughter we shared
All the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn
Do you remember when we were dancing in the rain in that December
And I remember when my father thought you are a burglar....
(I Remember - Mocca)
Uncontrollably, my mind flashed back to my memories a few months ago.
The memories about him.
The memories I’d wanted to forget, but I knew I couldn’t, and would never be, because I loved him too much to let it happened.
And as my iPod kept playing songs on my ears throughout the way, I kept on remembering some more memories about him....
-
First time I saw you I knew
I knew I love you cause my heart stop
Cause I la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la love you
Love can make you feel so funny
No house, no car, not even money
Will make you feel the way
What I’m trying to say
Can’t live another day without you
(Without You - Same-Same)
I remembered the first time I met him. It was when I got my first call up to the national team. He was two years older than me and definitely more experienced so I felt so....inferior when he introduced himself. But when I looked into his eyes, I caught the sweetest smile I’d ever seen flashing on the edge of his lips, and I found myself admiring his looks - his blonde hair, his brown eyes, even the amount of freckles splattered all over his boyish face....
He asked me for my number right after our first training together, and I gave it to him. He called me right after I reached home.
-
This is not your ordinary, no ordinary love
I was not prepared enough to fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary, no ordinary love
You are the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again with your extraordinary love
(No Ordinary Love - Jennifer Love Hewitt)
He asked me out for a date.
Yes, a real date.
I know, I know, both of us were boys and we weren’t supposed to be and blah blah blah, but I really couldn’t help it. I’d been longing to be with him since I saw him with his former girlfriend. I mean, he was nice and he was a great friend, but I always wanted more. Of course, I never stated it so obviously to him, for I always thought before that he was too straight-laced to be gay.
But then he broke up with his girlfriend and he asked me out. He asked me out.
I spent two days on the bar, drunk, because I still didn’t believe it at first.
“You wouldn’t be able to keep straight all the time when you’re a footballer, you know, with the sight of naked hot men greets you every day,” Iker said with a very amused expression in his face when finally he managed to have me relieved from my drunken state.
I didn’t say anything, partly because I was still feeling dizzy, and partly because I couldn’t care less about what he said anyway, as my mind was buzzing with NandoNandoNandoNando.
Iker tapped my shoulder. “Just take it lightly, okay?” he said, seriously this time. “Fernando is a good man, and even though I never pictured him as a gay before, I’m sure he’ll treat you well. You’re supposed to be drunk if he dumps you and not the opposite!”
I nodded. I believed in him. So, I called Nando after breakfast and said yes.
And we had one of the greatest moments in my life, especially when he kissed my lips and said that he loved me.
-
It’s a beautiful night
We’re looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or this is this dancing juice
Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you
(Marry You - Bruno Mars)
“Will you marry me?”
“...........Yes, I will.”
-
If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There’s an image of your face
And once again I come to realize
You’re the loss I can’t replace
Soledad
It’s a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
(Soledad - Westlife)
He was lying there, dressed neatly in his dark grey suit and blue tie. I used to love him in that pair of suit, because he had never been much more handsome. And so was him this time. Moreover, he was smiling peacefully, as if no one could hurt him anymore. Oh yeah....maybe that part was right.
His eyes were closed tightly and would never reopened anymore. I could only watch in agony and pain as they lowered his body into the ground. I wondered why he didn’t push them away and escape, right into my embrace. Didn’t he understand that I was there, waiting for him to open his eyes and hug me like nothing had happened?
But of course, he didn’t do it. Instead, the white tomb was closed in front of my eyes and two men started to throw the soil to bury him.
At the time, I couldn’t take it anymore.
I felt tears streaming down my cheeks. Some people approached me, trying to cheer me up but I pushed them away. All I wanted was him, I wanted him to be there and removed my tears and told me that everything was okay, but he couldn’t. I wanted to yell, Don’t leave me, Nando, I’m here, yes, this is Sergio, your boyfriend - but then again our true relationship was a pure secret and despite of my heart yearning to say that, I was still sane enough to know that he wouldn’t like it.
Maybe it’s the best for him, Sergio, as he’s in peace now and no longer in pain, one of my teammates, I couldn’t remember who, said that.
Yes, you’re in peace and no longer in pain and blah blah blah, but do you understand the pain you’ve inflicted upon me, Nando? Do you know how hard it would be for me to learn to live without you? Will you miss me up there?
-
When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The place I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone the words I need to hear
Will always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you
(When You’re Gone - Avril Lavigne)
People say that time heals every wound. But in my case, it didn’t want to be healed.
It had been a few weeks since his death, and the wound was still there. I couldn’t get away of the images of him in my dreams. And I didn’t want to get away of it. The images were killing me more and more every day, I knew, but sometimes I felt it’s better to live in the dream with him than living in the real world without him.
His love gave me strength to face my day, and when he’s gone, something in me was missing. And I couldn’t force myself to move on. I was thinking about end my own life and join him, but would he accept it? It’s hard to think but I knew that he would want me to be strong and continue my life.
I sighed and stared miserably outside the window. “I miss you,” I whispered to the stars twinkling on the dark sky.
-
I swear by the moon and the stars and the skies
I’ll be there
I swear like a shadow that’s by your side
I’ll be there
For better or worse, til death do us part
I love you with every beat of my heart
Oh, I swear
(I Swear - Boyz II Men)
I closed my eyes as my mind was diverted back into present time.
Now it had been a few months since his death. The pain was still there, but it wasn’t as hurt as before. Well, maybe time didn’t heal my wound perfectly, but it reduced the pain. And I found myself was able to continue my life, playing football and hanging out with my friends as if nothing had happened. Even I tried to go on a few dates with my teammates or some random girls.
But of course I would always remember him. Even if I had someone else later, I would always love him. I would never fall for someone like I did for him, and nothing could replace our love. He would never die as long as he still lived in my sweet memories.
I looked outside the window again. The rain was still pouring down, but the bus started to move, no more trapped in the traffic jam. I smiled. I couldn’t see him, but somehow I knew he was there, on each raindrops falling from the sky. Maybe hugging me tightly.
"I love you, Nando," I mouthed as the raindrops fell on the ground.
fin
Length: One-shot
Pairings: Fernando Torres/Sergio Ramos
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Fluff, Angst
Disclaimer: This is not true at all. I do not own Sergio or Nando, neither do the songs.
Author’s Notes: I'm baaaack! And with angst mood as well :P This isn't actually a new story, I've posted it before in another website, but I love this story so much that I wanted to share it with all of you. I rewrote some part to set Sergio in and of course, to make this more decent (hopefully). Happy reading! :)
-
I leaned on my chair, exhaling in relief because I didn’t have to stand up all the way in this hot little bus that even wasn’t good enough to be a chicken cage. I should have never take this kind of bus, but I had no other choice since all my cars suddenly declared World War III against me this morning and I had to take them all for repairing. Even the party in Iker’s place - which I refused to attend because I wasn’t in the right mood - seemed pretty tempting now.
I looked outside the window. The rain started to pour down. I sighed. This could be the sign of some fucking traffic jam on the way, and it meant that I would have to spend more time on this bus than I had expected before.
Since it was already too dark to read and I wasn’t in the mood of doing nothing, I decided to listen to some music, in in the hope that it would enlighten my mood. I took my iPod out of my backpack and set the headset on my ears. Putting it on Shuffle, I leaned my head again on the back of my chair and closed my eyes, letting the music played.
Suddenly, a familiar melody flew to my ears, and my eyes snapped open immediately in response.
I remember the way you glanced at me, yes I remember
I remember when we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
I remember all the things that we shared
And the promise we made, just you and I
I remember all the laughter we shared
All the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn
Do you remember when we were dancing in the rain in that December
And I remember when my father thought you are a burglar....
(I Remember - Mocca)
Uncontrollably, my mind flashed back to my memories a few months ago.
The memories about him.
The memories I’d wanted to forget, but I knew I couldn’t, and would never be, because I loved him too much to let it happened.
And as my iPod kept playing songs on my ears throughout the way, I kept on remembering some more memories about him....
-
First time I saw you I knew
I knew I love you cause my heart stop
Cause I la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la love you
Love can make you feel so funny
No house, no car, not even money
Will make you feel the way
What I’m trying to say
Can’t live another day without you
(Without You - Same-Same)
I remembered the first time I met him. It was when I got my first call up to the national team. He was two years older than me and definitely more experienced so I felt so....inferior when he introduced himself. But when I looked into his eyes, I caught the sweetest smile I’d ever seen flashing on the edge of his lips, and I found myself admiring his looks - his blonde hair, his brown eyes, even the amount of freckles splattered all over his boyish face....
He asked me for my number right after our first training together, and I gave it to him. He called me right after I reached home.
-
This is not your ordinary, no ordinary love
I was not prepared enough to fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary, no ordinary love
You are the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again with your extraordinary love
(No Ordinary Love - Jennifer Love Hewitt)
He asked me out for a date.
Yes, a real date.
I know, I know, both of us were boys and we weren’t supposed to be and blah blah blah, but I really couldn’t help it. I’d been longing to be with him since I saw him with his former girlfriend. I mean, he was nice and he was a great friend, but I always wanted more. Of course, I never stated it so obviously to him, for I always thought before that he was too straight-laced to be gay.
But then he broke up with his girlfriend and he asked me out. He asked me out.
I spent two days on the bar, drunk, because I still didn’t believe it at first.
“You wouldn’t be able to keep straight all the time when you’re a footballer, you know, with the sight of naked hot men greets you every day,” Iker said with a very amused expression in his face when finally he managed to have me relieved from my drunken state.
I didn’t say anything, partly because I was still feeling dizzy, and partly because I couldn’t care less about what he said anyway, as my mind was buzzing with NandoNandoNandoNando.
Iker tapped my shoulder. “Just take it lightly, okay?” he said, seriously this time. “Fernando is a good man, and even though I never pictured him as a gay before, I’m sure he’ll treat you well. You’re supposed to be drunk if he dumps you and not the opposite!”
I nodded. I believed in him. So, I called Nando after breakfast and said yes.
And we had one of the greatest moments in my life, especially when he kissed my lips and said that he loved me.
-
It’s a beautiful night
We’re looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or this is this dancing juice
Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you
(Marry You - Bruno Mars)
“Will you marry me?”
“...........Yes, I will.”
-
If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There’s an image of your face
And once again I come to realize
You’re the loss I can’t replace
Soledad
It’s a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
(Soledad - Westlife)
He was lying there, dressed neatly in his dark grey suit and blue tie. I used to love him in that pair of suit, because he had never been much more handsome. And so was him this time. Moreover, he was smiling peacefully, as if no one could hurt him anymore. Oh yeah....maybe that part was right.
His eyes were closed tightly and would never reopened anymore. I could only watch in agony and pain as they lowered his body into the ground. I wondered why he didn’t push them away and escape, right into my embrace. Didn’t he understand that I was there, waiting for him to open his eyes and hug me like nothing had happened?
But of course, he didn’t do it. Instead, the white tomb was closed in front of my eyes and two men started to throw the soil to bury him.
At the time, I couldn’t take it anymore.
I felt tears streaming down my cheeks. Some people approached me, trying to cheer me up but I pushed them away. All I wanted was him, I wanted him to be there and removed my tears and told me that everything was okay, but he couldn’t. I wanted to yell, Don’t leave me, Nando, I’m here, yes, this is Sergio, your boyfriend - but then again our true relationship was a pure secret and despite of my heart yearning to say that, I was still sane enough to know that he wouldn’t like it.
Maybe it’s the best for him, Sergio, as he’s in peace now and no longer in pain, one of my teammates, I couldn’t remember who, said that.
Yes, you’re in peace and no longer in pain and blah blah blah, but do you understand the pain you’ve inflicted upon me, Nando? Do you know how hard it would be for me to learn to live without you? Will you miss me up there?
-
When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The place I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone the words I need to hear
Will always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you
(When You’re Gone - Avril Lavigne)
People say that time heals every wound. But in my case, it didn’t want to be healed.
It had been a few weeks since his death, and the wound was still there. I couldn’t get away of the images of him in my dreams. And I didn’t want to get away of it. The images were killing me more and more every day, I knew, but sometimes I felt it’s better to live in the dream with him than living in the real world without him.
His love gave me strength to face my day, and when he’s gone, something in me was missing. And I couldn’t force myself to move on. I was thinking about end my own life and join him, but would he accept it? It’s hard to think but I knew that he would want me to be strong and continue my life.
I sighed and stared miserably outside the window. “I miss you,” I whispered to the stars twinkling on the dark sky.
-
I swear by the moon and the stars and the skies
I’ll be there
I swear like a shadow that’s by your side
I’ll be there
For better or worse, til death do us part
I love you with every beat of my heart
Oh, I swear
(I Swear - Boyz II Men)
I closed my eyes as my mind was diverted back into present time.
Now it had been a few months since his death. The pain was still there, but it wasn’t as hurt as before. Well, maybe time didn’t heal my wound perfectly, but it reduced the pain. And I found myself was able to continue my life, playing football and hanging out with my friends as if nothing had happened. Even I tried to go on a few dates with my teammates or some random girls.
But of course I would always remember him. Even if I had someone else later, I would always love him. I would never fall for someone like I did for him, and nothing could replace our love. He would never die as long as he still lived in my sweet memories.
I looked outside the window again. The rain was still pouring down, but the bus started to move, no more trapped in the traffic jam. I smiled. I couldn’t see him, but somehow I knew he was there, on each raindrops falling from the sky. Maybe hugging me tightly.
"I love you, Nando," I mouthed as the raindrops fell on the ground.
fin