i'm really afraid
That I've reached the point in hurt and moving on. I hate it. But God has a bigger plan for me and if what I'm pursuing right now isn't working, well, you know you can't force it. Because I will fail miserably while endorsing a large amount of 'heartbreak'.
Cody means the world to me. He really helped me through mine and Jake's break up and many other things. He is my bestfriend and so much more. But I cannot be the only person to apply any effort. And while I'm doing EVERYTHING, I have to feel badly because he exhibits too small amount to notice.
If I were capable of being perfectly fine right after I cut ties from a person, I would have done it many, many times with other people. However, I'm not that person. I cannot just ignore how much fun me and the other people had at the beginning, and how I am supposed to accept change. Live change. Maybe I'm merely stubborn.
But honestly, if I have to feel bad on a daily basis because of one single person, well, that's a really bad sign. And I realize this. Yet, I still have awful anxious feelings in my stomach all the time.
27 If I say, 'I will forget my complaint, I will change my expression, and
smile,'
Cody means the world to me. He really helped me through mine and Jake's break up and many other things. He is my bestfriend and so much more. But I cannot be the only person to apply any effort. And while I'm doing EVERYTHING, I have to feel badly because he exhibits too small amount to notice.
If I were capable of being perfectly fine right after I cut ties from a person, I would have done it many, many times with other people. However, I'm not that person. I cannot just ignore how much fun me and the other people had at the beginning, and how I am supposed to accept change. Live change. Maybe I'm merely stubborn.
But honestly, if I have to feel bad on a daily basis because of one single person, well, that's a really bad sign. And I realize this. Yet, I still have awful anxious feelings in my stomach all the time.
27 If I say, 'I will forget my complaint, I will change my expression, and
smile,'