I hate my heart

[miranda72]

I am out here studyin' stones.
Tryin' to learn how to be less alive.
Using all of my will, to keep very still.
Still even one the inside.
I've cut all of the pertanent wires.
So my eyes can't make their connection.
I am holding my breath.
I am feigning my death.
When I'm lookin' in your direction!