back home again...
i'm home, for the first time since rosh hashanah. then, i had only been
at school for 2 or 3 weeks, and i brought my roommate/one of my best
friends, hilary, home with me. but now, it's been 3 months. and i'm
home, just me. it's very different. my room doesn't feel like my room
anymore. i feel young and claustrophobic in it. cable 307 isn't that
big, but there is more floor space than in here. everything in here
represents who i used to be, not who i am now. the most recent thing is
high school graduation, which seems ages ago. yes, all the things that
already happened, that used to be me, are still part of me, but they
feel a more distant part of me.
on a more practical note, my family redid the hall floor and the entire kitchen. it all looks completely different, like something out of a magazine. the walls are red. who paints kitchen walls red? it's weird. it's not my kitchen anymore, it's not the place i grew up in, it's not my home anymore.
other weird thing...it's only 12:34. this is usually either the end of playtime and the start of serious work, or if it's been a productive night, i'm in the middle of playtime because i've already done my work. or even just sitting and talking to hilary, or schutzy...or rachel matt sarah leah etc. and even if i'm just studying or reading in my room, there are other people up and about in the hall or in the quad. it is dead silent in my house except for my typing and my music. it's eerie. i'm not used to the social contact ending so early. and yeah, talking to matt online...but it's not the same as being with everyone.
i've been looking forward to this for awhile, i'm still so glad to be home, don't get me wrong. i need the vacation from life for a couple of days, just to sleep and eat for exorbitant amounts of time. it's just odd....
on a more practical note, my family redid the hall floor and the entire kitchen. it all looks completely different, like something out of a magazine. the walls are red. who paints kitchen walls red? it's weird. it's not my kitchen anymore, it's not the place i grew up in, it's not my home anymore.
other weird thing...it's only 12:34. this is usually either the end of playtime and the start of serious work, or if it's been a productive night, i'm in the middle of playtime because i've already done my work. or even just sitting and talking to hilary, or schutzy...or rachel matt sarah leah etc. and even if i'm just studying or reading in my room, there are other people up and about in the hall or in the quad. it is dead silent in my house except for my typing and my music. it's eerie. i'm not used to the social contact ending so early. and yeah, talking to matt online...but it's not the same as being with everyone.
i've been looking forward to this for awhile, i'm still so glad to be home, don't get me wrong. i need the vacation from life for a couple of days, just to sleep and eat for exorbitant amounts of time. it's just odd....